Hey guys! ok this is my first entry and im not going to do the intro crap..im gonna pickup on where my last 3 days of my life have left me. First, i cannot wait for camp meeting, its gonna totally rok out! second, gus has been really confusing lately...as in i read his email this morning and everything has begn to make sense now...i understand what he is saying about having to choose between 2 risks and that neither one looks  that great right now..so yeah gus i understand that much. but another thing "Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game." That is the best piece of advice i can give to you. it's tje quote that i base all of my relationships on. now about kali..she is frikkin awesome..i guess that i have no particular reason to talk aobut her but she is soo sweet and has a great personality. if anyone agrees with this you have to tell her that. she deserves a guy better than the one she is getting married to on august 14th (j/p kevin is awesome too..but i should be the one marrying him kal!! ) no she is great and i love her!!! so yeah thats just like what is on my mind right now cept for the strawberry shortcake i just ate YUMM!!! k never mind but yeah ill post later...signing out          -tootsie pop

As spring is leaving and summer comes in it seems like all the guys get hotter and the girls get luckier. sorry i didn't mean that to sound like i was referring to "gettin some" i meant that it seems like there are more opportunities for girl relationships/ omg i sound like a frikkin shrink. jh/p but yeah i have the feeling that everything is gonna wor kout for me. this summer is something i'm really forward to. altho i usually hate wearing swimsuits this year i feel like i actually can wear a bikini this year and not look totally butt ugly.. i guess that working out alot this year has helped. I also think that what jason said about me look i'm in love. i guess i am. i mean as tinelle says.."it take only one moment to like someone...one minute to love someone..but a lifetime to forget someone." that fits me right now. i amtrying to avoid i am admitting im in love but as you say lauren no guy  ever fall for me. so yeah ttyl

hey!  iwent to the lock-in last nite and it was awesome! hey Kali..i like your shoes...where'd you get them? OLD NAVY!! lol ok private joke sorry. so yeah i am happy for alisa..aaron finally likes her!! YAY!! so yeha the lock-in was loads of fun i went swimming in my new blue bikini (it's totally cute!!) i am so happy that this year i actualyy worked on getting a  body..last year i totally didn't care but this year i worked out so i now am ok wearing a bikini! omg someone plese help m explain to kali that she isn't fat! gosh i am soo much bigger than her i i took off my shirt yesterday. so yeah kal you have a great body..show it off. i was soo happy that i got to go off the diving board..that is my fav thing to do at the pool (besides looking at guys..DUH why else would i go to the beach besides to show off my gorgeous bod  and check out hte guys???lol ) so yeah then i walked around listening to daniel's ipod and played racquetball with kali. we sucked soo bad!! yeah they played Napolean Dynomite, The Incredibles, and Groundhog Day. I didn't get to see all of the last one but daniel says i have to..so i think im gonna rent it or something. omg i feel like i'm having a hangover(not like i would know or anything ;)) but yeh i am like so out of it and crap. 

hey gus was talknig about going on a road trip in april around to see his friends from everywhere and that sounds like soo much fun! hey gus pick me and kali up first so we can meet all the other people. and you cna meet all of my gorgeous girls here. i have soo many beautiful friends..thats probably where i get it tho..the beauty wears off on me..gosh that would be soo much fun!  yeha my girls and i want to go on one to cali and back in august but lauren's car got slammed. so now we are in the process of trying to help her buy a new one. there is a really hot mustang that both of us LOVE but her parents are leaning toward a chevy. so yeah the chevy is cool but the stang is soo much better!! and faster. yeah i  can't wait to camp meeting so i can meet all of gus's friends and see my old ones. yeah camp meeting this year is totally gonna ROKK OUT! lol so yea im gonna go get back in bed or something.

sometimes it's hard

to face the facts

to tell the truth

to feel the ax

sometimes its tough

to own your mess

to say i failed

to just confess

the truth can hurt

you'll feel the pain

but when it's done

you'll see the gain

you'll see the load's

been taken away

and you can face

another day

so though it hurts

momentarily

embrace the truth

and be set free!

I got that poem off of tinelle's site..i thought it was soo cute but she didnt write it. so yeah my life is pretty good the lock-in rokked, im supposd to be doing the laundry..yay! j/p so yeah i' m leaving for camp meeting on thursday and that is going to totally ROKK!! i really hope kali can come and that i get to meet all of her and gus's friends there. i hope i can remeber my friends from like 4 years ago but i dont know any of their names so yeah that is going to suk. i'm gonna be like hi umm i'm amanda...i think i met you a long time ago..what's your name again? gosh i would feel so stupid but then again i'm good at that lol so yeah but then again alot of people know that my personality is more blonde than brunette. (OMG! the other day i was saying that to someone and i was like "I am soo much more blonde than not blonde!" my friends were LTAO! gosh but maybes that why  they love me becuz i am more blonde than not.) so yeah ttyl

YAY! I have to go pack for cmap meeting so this entry should be short. ok i am mad that kali cant come to camp meeting..i was soo hoping she could it would have totally rokked if she could have. but hse can't so at least my cousin can come. i was attempting to tell one of my guy friends how awesome she is while she was reading over my shoulder last nite and she kept punching me. lol it wa soo frikkin funny! ha ha ok let me explain. she is cute but totally sheltered. but she isa great friend and we are always soo stupid together i catt help but have fun around her. gosh if anyone were t obe with us when we hang out they would soo send us to a mental facility. lol. but yeha that's why we are friends..becuz we can be so retarded together. so yeah. she is really sweet and everything. gosh camp meeting is going to be soo much fun!!! only lke 24 hours left!!!darn i have to go pack now or i cnat go. lol whats the point of that? lol so ttyl

WOW! i have so much to say but not enough time to say it all right now. i think im gonna do a day by day thing fo what happened at cmap meeting although there is some stuff that very few people would understand. i need to write a little side note to gus's mom tho...

Mrs. Schultz: i know what you know and i am very thnakful that you are so caring and understanding. you gave me some really good advice before and didn't fail me at all in the last week. I'm not sure what all you know but i fell better knowing that you are the one that knows instead of soemone else. Thank you for listening to the person who told you.

OK I had an arguement with osme people aobut what eex bracelets stood for what so here is a list i got off the internet:

Sex Bracelet Color Codes
Yellow: hugging
Purple: anal sex
Red: lap dance, pole dance 

Blue: blow job
Black: missionary sex
Orange: kissing, necking, bare breasts
Green: fingering or outdoor sex
Clear: whatever you want
White: flashing or gay kiss or french kiss
Glow in the Dark: with sex toys
Red & Black: 69
Pink: massage
Silver: fisting
Gold Glitter: make out

ok some of those are totally wrong but that is exactly what it said there so yeah.i know it seems weird that i am the one posting it but it came up. right now i am wearing a pink one and a black one but it does not inply anything. i like the colors and the go with what i am wearing. btw to all the guys who might think about breaking a girls jelly: i think that you should always get the girls permission first. one of my friend's guy friends broke one and attempted to do what it meant and got the police called on him so yeah just ask first.

i need to write abotu camp meeting but i need to go for now. ill write about it later.

ok here is my post about cmap meeting. its gonna be in like journal style so it makes more sense. i am going to leave some stuff out that does not need to be know to the public but if it matters to you that i go into details more then email me and ask. ok? well here it it:

FRIDAY: i got up 4ish in the morning and went out and finished packing up the camper. we got the camper form my uncle so everyone didn't have to sleep in the canvas tent. i slept till like 10:30 when we pulled off into portage and shopped for an hour. i got this cute skirt and blue shirt. we got to cmap wakonda at noon. i rang kay to let her know we got there ok. we set up and did nothing till the night meeting. i saw drew walking around with dusten and i was totally shocked! he looks soo much like dad! he grew his hair all out and since i haven't seen him for 2 years it really surprised me. at the night meeting i was sitting next to drew and his friend eric. i got a bad first impression aobut eric. gus saw me and came over to say hi. we had never met before that but had talked on the internet alot. i went over and sat my him and met daric (isn't his name spelled cool!?! I LOVE IT) and some guy named cyrus who i still do not like at all and some of gus's other friends. I met gus's mom and dad and held joey for a lil while too.

SATURDAY: I was soo bored at the meeting! i swear the pastors think that if they make the meeting boring it might put us in the mood to sleep so we don't want to move. urgh i really didn't like the pastor Mr. T. from tonga. and then they had this 25 year old guy come in who had been in the drug scene and witness to us and whatever. i got the feeling he was still on drugs or something because he was way too excited. i walked around with mariah and jeannie for a while. OMG my grandma wanted me to do the witnessing in west field. when we were getting into the car 3with our driver who is this old guy who really needed to cut his nose hair (EWW) i looked at the other people in our group and there was this guy who used to be in my class like 2 years ago. he would stalk kay and i everywhere. it was so nasty! and he is totally freakish and everything. yeah saturday was kool and weird and basically boring.

MONDAY: ok monday was a lil more eventful than the weekend. i started working at kindergarten i the mornings becuz i thought it would be more fun and i might have more itme to hang out with drew and mariah. well drew got fired the meeting before i started for saying shit where the teacher lady could hear him. he was all proud that he was the first person to get fired. i hung out with drew and eric at derw's for a while and jeannie and i went down to the lake to watch waterskiing. it was boring and so  we went back up and ended up walking into gus. we had this really depressing convo that i came balc crying from. oh yeah i think monday nite aws the night that i walked in and i was really hyper and allen waved at me from the back row. i wasn't sure it was him so i didn't wave back. i had to ask carly and she confirmed that it was indeed allen. jeannie, mariah and i attempted to get his attention by saying his name which he ignored. then jeannie threw a wadded up paper at him and missed that was soo funny! finally mariah threw a pincone and hit him in the head. he turned around and was like "What do you want?" i was like "you're allen right?" he was like "Umm no..its Andrew" I felt soo stupid! then he turned around like 10 seconds later and said that he actually was allen. i was soo pist off.

TUESDAY: it was a pretty hot and boring day...the only interesting thing that happened was i hiot eric the the face with my purse and split his lip open. it was bleeding all over his hand. i was soo grossed out! I HATE BLOOD! urgh nastiness. so yeah then gus and i left at the beginning of the meeting and walked around on the other side of the lake and cmae back right after the meeting was over we got back and everyone like ran at us and all pist off and everything. eric thought gus had taken advantage of me and he was ready to kick gus;s ass and drew was all worried about me and everything. i finally got it all straightened out with drew and gus had to explain everything to his parents so the camp security didn't get us into trouble.

WEDNESDAY: WE went to naoh's ark. i hung out with mariah, jeannie, gus, carly, eric, josh, and alex josh's girlfriend. we waited for like an hour to go on the BLACK ANACONDA which was totally not worth it. and mariah bought us drink and they almost didnt let her up the line til she said i was about to pass out and couldn't breathe. i had like 2 seconds of warning and i had to act like i as all dehydrated and crap it was really funny. so yeah that was fun. drew adn alex didn't go to noahs ark with us they spent the day at soem beach somewhere like bums.

Nothing really happened thursday and friday cept for me leaving on friday and getting allens's hat dirty. oh yeah i had a bunch of community suckers during the week as well. mariah and them wanted a pic of gus and i together sowe went in the tent awawy from my fmaily and took a pic. i really want a copy of the pic! i got pics of  most of my frineds cept for allen but i already have one. so yeah cmap meeting was awesoem and if you want to know mroe then emial me like i said above.

hey i haven't written mcuh lately but i was thinking about a certain boy and i started writing poetry like crazy! i was soo happy. i haven't had good inspiration in soo long!i dont know if im gonna post them tho. they are kinda sappy and would make no sense to anyone in their right minds. unlike me. i'm in my left one! lol i had to say that.so yeha im talking to alex right now about the guys we  like. ha ha its really weird..she likes my half brother and i like her ex..but its not like there are any hard feelings between us. altho there might still be some between drew and gus. ha ha when drew saw me sitting by gus and he thought gus liked me he was like "I'm gonna go get my crow bar..i don't want him hitting on my sister" i started laughing so hard. drew is so sweet like that. he is really protective..i like is most of the time. except when he acts like my dad and has to know where i was, who i was with, what i was doing...but drew is awesome. im sure alex will agree with me on that. but yeha they are extremely cute together ecspecially when they are tickling each other that is really funny. so yeah i dont know her very well but i do know that she is really sweet and really pretty. i think that she is a good match for my brother..she's australian and french i think. she has blonde hair and she is skinny and about as tall as me maybe taller. she has a nice nose that i am so jealous of! i hate the frikkin sheppler nose! urgh one thing that suckz about german is the stupid noses. alex has an awesoem accent. i love australian lingo! so yeah that's alex.

i have decided that i do like my eyes. even tho they are really big and give away like every emotion i ever feel. they are green with like brownish red spokes. they sound freaky but alot of people like them i dont know why tho. sometimes they are solid green which i like the most. but they are not hazel. i refuse for them to be called hazel! ha ha you can see whenever i am afraid or shocked..they get really bright. but yeah try to write more later...

 hey guys! as usual my life is confusing and disappointing. i walked around during church this morning cuz i didn't want to be around people there. i didnt want to be around anyone. i felt really confused at everything. lol not like thats unusual for me or anything tho. so yeah i have been trying to figure out for myself whether or not to think with my heart. i do sometimes and that makes me happy for a while but then i always seem to end up hurting someone. i read in a book recently the saying "in love there are always two kinds of people; the beloved and the lover, one who loves more" i feel that if i knew which side i was in the relationship i am in right now things might be a little more clear. if i think with my heart then i know this is meant, if i use my mind and think aobut practicality then i know this probably wont work for long. someone asked me to look into the future yesterday and ask if i can see this working. i can't tell right now.

ok back to explaining what i was trying to write last night. i dont know whether or not to be practical. haha like i ever do but rightnow i think that there is no practical answer. love isn't practical. but then again neither is love. so here i am in the middle of a tightrope trying to decide whether to jump of fall...hard decision. but in my head right now i think i have made my choice. I'm jumping. ive always been the kind to not let others make choices for me. nce in a while i like to be led but not very often. It seems to me that i have more fun when i dont try to predict what happens next. Right now I'm jsut gonna stop swimming and tread water. im gonna let the flow of the water pull me.  I feel sorta relieved that i dont have to take the lead right now. well if anything happens ill update you guys on it later.

Ok now to the shallow teen age conversation topics. HA gotta love those. no thought process required. I had soo much fun last night! WE went to the lake and swam till like 7 then i got to go and watch fireworks! YAY! I LOVE WILLOWS!! i have no idea what they are actually called but those are the ones that go up boom and when they come down they leave long trails back to the ground and look like willow trees. therefore i call them willows. i had the whole western thing going on yesterday. i was wearing my fav pair of jeans with a white and a a button up shirt knotted at my middle. i had this disk belt on hanging down my leg with a cowboy hat on. it look pretty cool tho. WOW m,y hair was looking so hott this morning untill i brushed it. it was all messy and crap but it looked like i was about to go to a club. and my eyeliner that was from yesterday was smudged perfectly. Darn i wish i could do that all the time...But then i might look like a hooker or something. but i got a pci so im happy about that.

ouch..feel the burn of the needles in you heart. or the the fingernials digging into your skin. or your heart being ripped out. hmm for me its all of the above. maybe its time to let go? hmm wonder why it took me soo long to figure that one out. you know what? i hate crying! its so pointless and gay and it gives away the wrong emotions. for me when i cry i look sad. BULL SHIT! damn i am so not sad right now! i am fucking pist off! not at a person but sorta at a certain boy.  damn him for being so likeable and for not liking me as much as i liked him. damn the other girl for being so perfect for him. damn me for not being good enough and for not letting go. damn my heart for feeling it. ha i sound like a lunatic. its ok for now cuz thats how i feel but as long as no one decides to check me into a facility, i'm good.  s othen how are your lives? please tell me about osmething happy and cheerful..im depressed enough as it is. wiat a sec..why the hell do i leave people's names out of my emails!?! urgh its not like matthew gives a fuck what i say about him anyway. and paige.the gorgeous brunette who he like sso mcuh..the best of luck to both of them. i hope she makes him happy. he deserves that at least. i'm gonna go write a poem or song called the burn. cuz i can feel it right now better than ever. ha ha damn my stupid life! wow i like that word...

Dreamland I'll see you there in dreamland a place where nothing goes wrong and love always holds on strong I'll see you there in dreamland beneath the stars shining bright so afar I'll see you there in dreamland once more before you wake and close the door I'll see you there in dreamland to take away all the pain you sleep away I'll hold you there in dreamlands care and take away the pain you bare

wow i love shopping! i went yesterday and got a ton of totally adorable stuff. the best thing i got is these really cute pair of black shorts. ok no one probably cares about my clothes. lol. so then all i have left to do is go find  a party to go to now. thats the problem with a small town. there are no parties! ok there are just like once a month with like less than 50 people. even the bar is dead. that i find highly hilarious. ha like there is actually a reason for BS to have a bar anyways. no one hear really drinks and no one ever gets drunk. (not adults newayz) so yeah small towns are cool and suck and the same time.

ok now i really need to talk about an issue that has been bothering me. when i get depressed i cut sometimes. but i have never done it to hurt anyone and i dont want to. i was reading one of my friends sites and he said that he wanted to start cutting again. i dont want him to. i dont want him to hurt himself. i can feel it when he does. i dont know why but i can tell when he hurts. i just cant let myself be ok with that. if you read this please stop thinking aobut it. if you think you have to then feel it when i do it. dont allow yourself to. feel my pain if you msut feel pain. there is no reason for you to; not when you have someone to live for. if i did i would probably not cut either. do this one thing for me, it would make me feel alot better about what has happened. and its better for you and the person you live for.

Ok guys. be totally honest with me. I want you all to critique my personality and my looks. i really want to know what annoys you about me and what things you like the most about me. K? so reply exactly what you think. have fun. lol. ttyl. Amanda aka tootsie pop

i hope no one who reads this post believes that your dreams are your true desires. lol. this surely cant be what i want! nor can the dream i had about alex. sorry but that was the most screwed up dream ever! ok last night's dream was based off the 4400. ok there was the little girl who can see the future but like there were ghosts. the bad ones were totally invisible except to the chosen people. i could see the chosen ones but not the demons. so i would have to ask a chosen one if there were demons or not around me. it was totaly weirded out. so yeah that was my dream basically me running from what i could not see. kinda like me running from problems. hmm. whateva. so yeah  i am really bored right now!!!i feel like filling 2 pages with smilies then posting it. haha everyone would probably block my site and remove me form their friend lists. gosh. i really wanna go shopping but my mom won't leave the house. DUH she fell asleep. hmm maybe i should just leave while she sleeps.ok eric is annoying me. lol as usual. but since no one else is on!!!urgh! ok i am ending this before i bore you guys with nothingness. so yeah ttyl. i wanna go get "lei'd" as emily's party.

Have you ever wondered where new fads come from? Like i dont get the whole ugg boots thing or the furry lamp shades. but i do like the destroyed denim thing going on right now and converse are a big thing here. i have 2 pairs of converse that i totally love! i have a nice pair of black low tops and  a trashed pair of black hi-tops that i redid. i always modify my clothes. ha ha ask my sister it drives her crazy.i redo alot of my clothes to fit my style and personality better. ill take a pair of pants and make a skirt or a purse. or ill take a plain colored shirt and applique or sew on some really cute details. my next project is going to be glamming up a pair of my jeans. adding beads, pearls, sparkly buttons and lil charm things. i jsut have to get the stuff first.  yesterday i took a boring denim jacket i had and destroyed it a little. its totally cute now! i snagged, frayed, cut, tore, and rubbed it. its really cute now! i'm trying to decide whether or not to wear it to the ice cream thing we have tomorrow night. ok every year our local grocery and health store has this thing were everyone gets free ice cream sundaes and they sell hotdogs and soda pop for $.50 each. everyone goes. the whole town is there in the parking lot and i get to see all my friends who dont go to my curch or school. there's david and the twins, my lil campers from summer camp, and friends who go to GLAA. (great lakes adventist academy)

ALso a great chance t omeet new students before the new school year. alot of the new freshies are so annoying. i'm not sure how that is gonna go but at least they are the ones getting the swirlies. lol no one has ever gotten one at our school. the worst pranks we do is knocking over all the book shelves in the library, letting mice rats go in the chapel, putting skunks in the hallways, and taking the teachers lecture books. i didn't do much last year tho. maybe i should help my friends borrow the principals car like they want to. he would probably laugh it off tho. hmm any ideas? i need to go eat now so ttyl.

Amanda aka tootsie pop

[_] go out with me?

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[_] let me teach u how u to drive?(if u didnt know how)

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this is a sumary of what i have gone thru and learned over the past year, im going ot be very open and honest. dont be judgemental or sympathetic. just read it and try to understand more about me.

Ever since i graduated from 8th grade i knew that things were gonna change. My class of 48 was going to be combined with the students from the other classes. we wre going to lose some and gain some. over the summer i hang out with kayleen whenever i could. i knew after being the closest of friends since kindergarten i would miss her. that summer i got a job at a summer camp. i had gone there as a kid and looked forward to making the 5 &6 year old lil girls have the best summer of their lifes. instead it taught me about life. during orientation week the 2 travel teams came. i met alot of great people and got alot of great memories. swimming in jeans and i baggy camp shirt, freezing at the beach vespers, getting ''guitar lessons" from lucas, getting totally soaked at the car wash and having to borrow some of josh's clothes, holding hands with lucas on the bridge during our last day together. I also learned about being the true me by hanging around with david at my lifeguard duty. I never wanted him to like me back..i didn't want to hurt his relationsip with carla. even being liking david as much as i thought i did i was practical. i thought i would be that way in all my relationships. if only i had known i would have become a nun.

At the end of the summer i went to oshkosh. there i spent the week with lauren and kayleen where we spent the whole time majorly crushing on tommy and jason. i usually go for the brunettes so i had jason to myself. lol and the stupid fart machine anthony always had omg! i miss that kid. oshkosh was great!! i met kali there..hmm i am really glad i went. kali is one of the best friends a gir lcould ever have. even if she has "seductive hair" as usual lauren and i got into a big fight at the camporee. DUH. thats what always happens. after that was the fair weekend. i went a couple of different days and ended up going running into jason lemon alot. i borrowed his dog tag for like 2 weeks after that. thats where i got my nickname for that summer "lemon" his name is jason lemon so when anyone would ask my name i would be like "its Lemon Jason" lol no one actually fell for that one. hmm wonder why? anyways  at the fair i went to the circus with fernandez. we had flirted and talked a lil bit in the past but nothing serious. during the circus we held hands and he had his arm around me. the next week school started. i had gotten a bunch of new clothes and the idea that i wanted to be ms. popularity. hmm not working out for me. neways michael and i held hands durinbg our a couple of our classes at the beginning of the year. then our seating changed in class and we had a fight so that fling was over.

first month of school and id already had 3 flings since graduation. id hoped to have a solid longterm relationship for once but htat just doesnt seem to work for me. then at a homecoming party i feel asleep on jon's shoulder. when i woke up his arms were around my waist and my hands were on his chest. i had a lil crush on him at the time so i was really happy about that. we pretty much stayed like that the whole night. when i was about to leave he wanted to make out but i jsut gave him a kiss on the cheek and left. he was mand and thought i didnt like him so he pretty much ignored me for a while. jon's gf after that pretty much wished i was dead. after a bunch of different attempts at ruining my life i wanted to get revenge soo bad!! so i stole her purse from the locker room. i knew i shouldn't have but it was a spur of the moment thing. ifi had thouht it out i never woulda taken it. well she started a rumor that i was the one who had been taking stuff all year. stuff has always disappeared for mthe locker room. my fav pair of pants disappeared too. i didnt take the other stuff but they had proof of me taking the purse so them pinned everything on me. That hurt soo bad. YM rep was ruined and only my closest friends knew the truth. once when i wasn't even at the school $100 went missing and a "witness" placed me there. i had to talk to a police officer and get a couple counseling sessions. i was soo pist! omg i didnt even to it. the vice principal and told me that he had cleared my name up. Bull shit! that yeah made me depressed and pist off for the rest of the year. my happiest time were when i was with jessie or talknig to mrs. amor. she was my fav teacher. she knew that i wasinnocent and understood me. she talked to me alot and was soo understanding. i told her about me relationship with andrew. lol that was the dumbest thing ever. but now she's gone. i dont want to go back to AA. my rep there is screwed and i need to start over and let them know that it wasnt me taking stuff. ifi ever find out who actually was taking the stuff then i would need to be locked up. i am soo pist at this person. i hope i never found out who it is for their sake. dang it! I want to go to boarding school soo bad!! all the people who were stopping me from going last year got kicked out and are coming to AA this year. damn.

ok i need fill you in about Andrew. ok he is this guy who was always at camp au sable when i was there. we had always flirted and at bible camp during my eigth grade yaer we hooked up. well my teacher had some people spying on me to make sure i behaved. anyways they saw us making out and told her. when she asked i told her that he hadn't kissed. smart move, anyways our teacher forbade us to see each other and we were on chains for the rest of the week. they made us write letters to each other in apology of what had happened. sicne the whole thing was soo dumb we stopped calling each other a couple weeks after. any ways the next time i saw him was at pmc when the bible bowl thing was going on. it was the first time we had met since everything happened so at first when i heard he was there i turned around. then i was talking to pickle and she was like dont turn around. so i waited for like 3 minutes and then did. he wasn't there. i was soo happy. then he came thru the door. ok andrew is this 6'3 guy wih brown hair and the brightest blue eyes ever. and he was tan. well we were like staring at each other as he walked over. then we said hey like 3 times. ok after getting over the ackward ness we ended up spending the whole day together with kali and kevin. we had a ton of private jokes from that day. kali is the only one who will get these ..."i believe POP" "KEVVVVIN" "kirra- kirra" and a ton of others. well he kissed me goodbye when they had to leave. o nthe cheek. then we talked alot. on the phone we talked like  3 hours a night on saturdays and a lil while on while on weekdays. The same day that i saw andrew was the day that i called gus on kali's phone. lol. im glad i called. i would have missed out on one of the greatest friendships i ever have had. *sigh* ill write the rest of gus's story later. Ok andrew and i both had felt the connection we had had before. anyways the rest was awful and i told yuou guys that right after i started mindsay. i cant talk about that now. i relaize how much hurt i caused a certain boy. im sorry. i want to tell you the story of my love right now and in the past month. at camp meeting i had the most fun i have had in the longest time. i fell ever deeper in love than i had thought possible. i began to need to be around him. im not using names but if you have paid any attention to me in the last 2 months you know exactly what im saying. right now even after we broke up and he moved on and got dumped i still love him. i dont know what he wants or if he even has thought about me at all for the last 3 weeks when he was with the other girl. he is the only one i have thought about. i have tried to think about the party and jason but i dont want that. i want the boy who remembers me say that if he touched me i would lose control and then touched my legand asked if i was losing it yet. or who knows what i mean when i ask him what the question of the day is. I'm telling you right now that i love you and want to be with you. if you know who you are then write me telling me answering this question...

                         "WHAT IS THE QUSTION OF THE DAY?"

OMG my friend jusr won 4 tickets to see jesse mccartney in concert on the 23rd of august!!! i can have one if i get permission to go. i am soo excited! i love love LOVE jesse!! YAY! i am soo happy! dang.i am really shallow. so what!?! im a teenage girl so shove it pricks! lol i feel like dancing right now. lol ill try to write something of worth later when im not as excited.                      Amanda

urgh. i totally forgot aobut bowling tonight till 2 mintues ago when kali asked if  i was going. i love bowling!! dang it. i was about to take a shower, i 'm not dressed or wearing makeup and i didnt have permission. so im gonna stay home and tlak to boring people on msn. JOY! urgh. hmm maybe i sohuld teach jon how to play minesweeper so i dont feel so bad about whooping his booty. lol i kick ass at that game. woo hoo i jsut whooped him 26-2 .lol that was too easy.so yeh i have nothing to wirte about at all. wait i lie.MY grandmother wants me to get butt ass ugly clothes for school. she wants me to bring the waists of my pants up to my belly button. EWW!!! ok the longer shirts dont bother me but high pants are sick!! and skirts halfway down to my ankles.OMTG Like gag me with a spoon! (no, "OMTG" was not a type-o..it stands for oh my total gosh) urgh old people have sick minds. and bad taste. so yeah im gonna go use up my steam kicking jons butt again.

ok today is boring and lame and awful!! kali, kay, lauren, brad, jason, and all of my other friends are either in a different country or at 6 flags. i wanted to go but it was $40 and i had just gotten about $200 worth of clothes on friday. not that i had anythingt against getting the clothes (i love them all!!!)  its just my mom and grandma paid for all of it. i dont wanna go ask for $40 right now cuz i just spent my money.  anyways i hope you guys have fun there. hmm you wont be reading this till tomorrow since you get back at 1am. dang. anyways besides there being no one to talk aobut this really cute guy moved into the apartments across form my yard. so last night it was raining and i was outside in a light pink tank top and my hot shorts. lol sam and i got totally soaked and we were jumping on the trampoline and playing in the sprinkler. he and his little brother were outside playing football shirtless. yummy. lol. anyways i didn't talk to him but he was watching me and vice versa. i think we could be friends...

Oh yeah something else to talk about before i post. Mom (mrs. schultz) joey and gus are probably gonna come over here on tuesday and wednesday. YAY. i mean i love them. lol joey is soo adorable, mom is great and funny, and gus is ...gus. hmm how to i describe him. lol that would take forever. but yeah kali said his mom wanted to meet her and that this might be a great opportunity to do so. i really hope and can see them too. i wish they could stay still saturday so they could coem to our church. i think they would like that. and all my friends that have been paying attention to me   life in the past 4 1/2 months have heard about gus. he has alot to do with my having a great time this spring. lmao. i can be soo dumb. anyways yeah i really hope i hang out with them when they get here.

Gus isnt home yet. i think. whatever. i just took 26 really good pictures of me! YAY! they are soo hott. I am soo hott! lmao. those words hardly ever pass my lips. i changed outfits like 6 times in the pics. he he he im so dramatic. i should go into modeling. i love flirting with the camera. hmm i think i jus love flirting period. ok i got my GLAA packet a lil while ago and i read thrr everything. its looking GREAT! he he in my past post i wrote about green eyes. tonight im writing a lullaby about them. and mine are still bright green. (i have long endurance..oh god that sounded so weird!!!) anyways drew is making sense so i think im getting sick. he never makes sense the little dork. ha ha. i asked him about a relationship working and he was basically like "well maybe someday it will work but for now jsut enjoy it as it comes." ha ha i keep repeating myself. he he he i feel so dumb. i'll post the bestest of the pictures up in the morrow. ha ha i cracketh my self up. ok since my caffeine fomr last night seems to only be kicking in now i believe i should bring a glorious end to this beautilful post. i repeat: ha ha. so yeah i need to drag myself far away from the living and mourn over my broken heart that doesn't hurt yet. ahh well when it does im sure you will be hearing about it. so goodbye abd goodnight friends, contacts, acquaintences, minions, stalkers and lover(s). [like im actually gonna trust you guys with how many i have??]  ok yeah bye.            

 -amanda aka tootsiepop aka ash aka beautiful aka gorgeous aka lemon aka hun aka manda

I need some..or leather.

Lying on my back.

Staring at the light but not feeling it blind me.

Listening to the radio blasting but not hearing it deafen me.

I try to move but I'm stuck in a trance.

I try but I am unable to breathe.

Then out of the shadows comes a song.

Floating thru the room on a stream of air.

It reaches my ears and passes over me like a warm ocean wave.

4 hours later i awake and realize that i have had the most wonderful time.

The song that sang me a lullaby gave me the best gift.

It gave me a dream of you.

Ok majorly dumb poem. whatever. GUS CAN't COME! AHH that sux. Kali is gonna be devastated. as soon as i fisnish cleaning it ill send you some pics of my really hott room!! ITs soo awesome!! ok so yeah. im BORED BORED BORED!! bored as a brain dead cow in the dead of winter. ok bad metaphor. darn cant think of a better one. i hate boreDUMB. he he that one was for greenie. she is funny as heck. ok yeah im being a dork. thats why you love me right? jp. ok the question of the year is below:

kid: "Mr. Turtle. HOw many licks does it take to get to the tootsie roll center of a tootsie pop?"

Mr. Turtle:  "Dont know. Never got that far. Go ask Mr. Owl"

kid: "Mr. Owl. How many licks does it take to get to the tootsie pop center of a toosie pop?''

Mr. Owl: "One, Two, Three *CRUNCH*''

How many licks does it take? The world may never know.

WISHING WELL

Under gnarled, swaying bracnches

Besides moss covered earth

Among flowers dancing in the breeze

SIts a well, forlorn and sad.

Bucket broken, string long gone

cranks rusted, timbers bowed

Left deserted, all alone.

Free of coins, empty of change

its finds a way to remain

a wishing well for me.

I sit on an edge

feet dangling insdie

writing a poem.

About broken hearts and broken people

Brokens dreams and brokens wells.

I realize now that a heart, a person, a dream, and a well can all be broken;

but not a soul and never a spirit.

Under gnarled, swaying bracnches

Besides moss covered earth

Among flowers dancing in the breeze

Sits a wishing well.

Im standing on the bridge
Im waiting on the dark
I thought that you'd be here
by now
Ther's nothing but the rain
no foot steps on the ground
Im listening but ther's
no sound

Isn't anyone trying to find me
Won't somebody come take me home

it's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are but I
Im with you
Im with you

Im looking for a place
Im sarching for a face
Is anybody here
I know

Cause nothing's going right
And everything's a mess
And no one likes to be
alone

Isn't anyone trying to find me
Won't somebody come take me home

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I
Im with you
Im with you

Oh

Why is every thing so confusing?
Maybe Im just out of my mind

Yeah yeah yeah...

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't Know Who You are
But I
Im with you
Im with you
Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't Know Who You are
But I
Im with you
Im with you

Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't Know Who You are
But I
Im with you
Im with you

YAY for sappy avril songs. Im a big fan of avril becuz every single song the girl has every sang has been my anthem. theres on for every mood. hmm cept for the "imm confused cuz there's this great guy who likes me" ahh whatever. so yeah im still floating thru my days. Its great this...puppy love thing ive got going on. someone once said if you think that you are in puppy love then..you aren't. i mean it makes sense that you wouldnt be able to know that you were but after being thru less intense cases of puppy love i realize that i am. somehow curtis being curtis he makes me laugh at everything. Like today i was being so cumb but i wasnt even really frustrated at myself (i mean what the freaking heck is past perfect progressive tense??) and at lunch marlisa dropped her ice cream onto her plate and was licking it off ...it was soo tempting...i lightly hit the back of her head so she got ice cream all over. OMG i was laughing soo hard i started crying. yeah last night i wanted to cry for this kid who had gotten high with a friend and killed him when he was. When the detectives figured this out he said that he hoped Bobby got of free. "You dont get it! I just killed my best friend..i dont care what happens to me" the poor baby. Should i feel bad aobut a story CSI probably made up to put on their show? show i look at it as tho it is a real case adapted to fit primetime? i dont know. Why is everything so confusing? MAybe I'm jsut out of my mind...(see lyrics above) so yeah love you guys. thanx for listening to me ramble on and on forever about curtis and all my daily blonde moments.                -Belle aka tootsie pop

SUMMER NIGHTS

Summer lovin', had me a blast
Summer lovin', happened so fast
Met a girl crazy for me
Met a boy cute as can be
Summer days drifting away
To, uh oh, those summer nights

Well-a, well-a, well-a, uh!
Tell me more, tell me more
Did you get very far?
Tell me more, tell me more
Like does he have a car?

She swam by me, she got a cramp
He ran by me, got my suit damp
Saved her life, she nearly drowned
He showed off splashing around
Summer sun, something's begun
But, uh oh, those summer nights

Well-a, well-a, well-a, uh!
Tell me more, tell me more
Was it love at first sight?
Tell me more, tell me more
Did she put up a fight?

Took her bowling in the arcade
We went strolling; drank lemonade
We made out under the dock
We stayed out till ten o'clock
Summer fling don't mean a thing
But, uh oh, those summer nights

Well-a, well-a, well-a, uh!
Tell me more, tell me more
But you don't gotta brag
Tell me more, tell me more
'Cause he sounds like a drag

He got friendly holding my hand
Well, she got friendly down in the sand
He was sweet, just turned eighteen
Well, she was good, you know what I mean
Summer heat, boy and girl meet
But, uh oh, those summer nights

Well-a, well-a, well-a, uh!
Tell me more, tell me more
How much dough did he spend?
Tell me more, tell me more
Could she get me a friend?

It turned colder; that's where it ends
So I told her we'd still be friends
Then we made our true love vow
Wonder what she's doin' now
Summer dreams ripped at the seams
But, oh, those summer nights

Tell me more, tell me more

Can someone explain to me the whole thing about summer lovin? its confusing, annoying, causes way too much trouble and yet i love the memories and want to repeat them in my mind over and over. i had this crazy-mad summer that hasnt ended yet. for me summer doesnt end until i have my last beach party at the lake. i love the lake. its soo beautiful. this summer its soo weird...i mean looking back over my life since may. dang its a freakin soap opera script! But then this is me talking and we have to remember how much i say i love drama. dont get me wrong i had a delightful summer..in and out of love with certain guys..adn now liking curtis....CURTIS IS PURDY!!!ha ha krysta is reading my blog right now..she threatened to give the address to curtis. NOOO i would die! ha ha htat would be funny. so yeah im bored...7 days till i see curtis..oh yeah krysta is coming here on saturday night!! OMG!!YAY YAY YAY!!!

Ok yesterday was great! Krysta came over with courtney and daniel and taylor (sorry kid..tyler) WE jumped on the tramoline for a while with krysta in her "hoochie" skirt. Shes funny. yeha i couldnt go see grease at the drive thing last night. i had kid duty. so me and chrys and dave crashed here and watched Rigoletto. thats such a cute movie!!!

   "I lobe the part in faeries tales that's very near the end. Where all the kingdom cheers for their new queen. And all is good and all is right and everyone belongs."

Its a sappy little faeries tale mmovie but i love the music. ok yeah CUBS ROCK!! they won last night..so did Notre Dame! OH YEAH FREAKING LUCKY SPORTS DAY! oh wait its not luck..the cubs dont need it...(notre dame on the other hand...) ok yeha it sucked that the Braves won. NOOO! frikkin demonic team. DIE! the cowboys lost as usual and the brewers lost too. AWW poor allen. he must be very upset right now. ha h a i mock him soo bad sometimes. but All is great. I LOVE You! ha ha ok i need to be philosphical for a minute. ummm  ok here my summer is ocming to an end. I found this out as i was sitting on the beach watching the sun set. Its like it was setting on the past memories of my summer and rising to the new ones. when the sun was setting i had no idea what kind of day the new dawn would be but i could hope that it would be beautiful. and it was. that was the day I had decided that i was going to say i was over a boy who i never would have had a chance with. yeah yeah the whole "i like you but it wouldn't work" is a pile of bullshit and i knew it was better for me to say i was over him even if i was only pretending. But i got my happy ending this time: the next day i left for Camp Au Sable (which i am now thinking means either enchanted or cursed) that weekend i had the most wonderful time. being stupid adding like 30 blonde moments to my list and starting to fall for this really great guy. Hes totally different form gus in everyway. gus and i were too much alike. and now with gus doing as i predicted we never would have worked. i knew that eventually he would fall for kali andi told her. she laughed at me. i hate being right some times. *sigh* but im just hoping that gus gets his girl, kali ends up happy like she deserves, and i get my happy ending. Am i asking too much? i dont know. but i think that i really want to be with curtis..whether or not anthony has feeling for me.  so yeah if aynone reads this ..dont tell anyone named about it. i mean gus and kali can read it but not anthony or curtis ok?? so yeah thanx for listening guys. love ya, Belle akak tootsie pop

Why do you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like your somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into honesty
promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no no

Ok no one is really making things complicated on urpose but there are people making things complicated without knowing it. Kurtis: because i have this little thing for him and he knows it and doesnt admit to my face that he thinks Im a "cash in and check out" kinda girl. James: because he likes me and he is the sweetest boy ever. but id rather have him as a best friend than a boyfriend. hes my pocket sized asian and will be forever but hes jsut too....pocket sized. ok hes only like half an inch shorter than me but i cant see myself liking him. poor kid. Gus: because i want to talk to him about stuff and i trust him but as he says " we weren't really in a brothersister relationship" its true. danged it. oh yeah and i really hope he gets his girl. ok i have to finsih later...nikki is kicking me off ttyl.      -Amanda

 ok more stupid picks up lines later...

Hmm kali you have seen donny haven’t you? Hes the one who you thought looked a little like gus. Ahh well yeah donny is pretty darned good looking. My face is awful. I hate freckles on me. They look great on kali and kem but never ever on me. EWWW. I want to use lemon juice to make them fade but all the home remedies ive ever heard of have never actually worked. WAA! Ok yeah donny fell asleep during the testing we had to do today and he was hogging the couch so chris, heather, and Michael all went over and sat on him and he started sleep talking. He was like “make the frikkin apes go away” I was like OMG!! Then I tried to make him talk and I was like “Donny, hunny the apes are all gone but your gf wants to know if she can kiss you” (he doesn’t have a gf btw) and then he mumbled something and turned his face out where I could reach it. I started laughing so hard I cried. He wakes up and we are all literally rolling on the floor laughing.  Then at lunch Sinclair was acting depressed so jennelle and I started the “J&A shrink” we were all being really dumb and I got a tummy ache from laughing. So yeah im supposed to be doing a English paper over again because my gay dumbass teacher doesn’t like the way I write. ARGH! Every other teacher of mine worshipped my feet for having great writing and literary skills. Stupid german pigs!! Oh yeah (this is where I remind myself that I am also german) ahh well. I gotta go write it over so ill talk to yall later (mumbles incoherent French words) bye guys             -tootsie pop

{Im bored so forgive any dumb things i say}

ok i want you to know that i know that you know that i know that i dont make any sense half the time im being sensical. he he i feel evil so im going to confuse all of you. im bored and nonne of you ever reply. losers! lol just palyin i love yall. OMG allen was in berrien and he couldnt look me up. that is soo freakkin annoying. i really woulda loved to see him. hmm alex and drew should have cheryl drive them over here over christmas break....hint hint. ok yeah that was pretty danged obvious but i doubt anyone has ever known me for being subtle. so yeha now im going to talk aobut something that i really havent mentioned much. im mentioning it because i feel dumb avoiding the subject...Pat and i are going out now..sort of. kinda sorta but unofficially. hes great. we are pretty stupid together. golfing was great..he kept score for me and kal and kem and dava. (oh wait sorry it "Duvah Hizzly") has any one beside me noticed how perverted golf can be??? oh yeah i went conoeing with kayleen and marshall on saturday..that was fun. OMG marshall had just gotten dunked so he was all dripping went and he came over picked me up and threw me like a sack of potatoes over his shoulder. i was soo shocked that this kid oculd pic kme up at all. hes like 5'3'' but hes really strong i guess. oh yeah i wanted to punch him, he was like "wow i didnt know i oculd pick Amanda up..judging from the way she looks i thought she woulda weighed alot more" oww. ok not really. we have always been mean to each other. ok yeah im bored so im gonna post some of the dumb sayings dylan and ivan got stuck in my head...

There's a snake in the grass and it's gonna bite your---face. (btw its supposed to soud like you're gonna say ass)

RAH RAH REE kick em in the knee    RAH RAH RASS kick em in the other knee

omg pat just told me a really weird pick up line..it took me like 5 seconds to get it tho..blonde moment

THE WORD OF THE DAY IS LEGS>>SO LETS GO TO MY CRIB AND SPREAD THE WORD

pretty perverted but funny at the same time..                         -tootsie pop

I'm at kali's..we surtprised kem with a little party. sorta. its fun enough i guess. it could be better. leave it to me to miss the guys. omg i have a confession...wait i cant exactly tell everyone. ok pat...time to be totally honest. we havent talked like more than for 10 min and i havent missed you. I'm being brutally honest. sorry if it hurts but if you dont care its ok too. I dont think that this is working. its dumb to say this over the internet but i want to let you know. I may grow to like you later but i thought i did but it was only infatuation. It's gone now...there isnt really anything there for me besides friendship and i dont want you to turn into a "boytoy" (quoting jose) this is hard for me to say but im trying really hard not to lie about anything to anyone. sorry about ending something that never really started. Pat, if you want you can stop reading now because im going to write about other guys...just a warning...

As i told kali in church today "I am falling helplessly in love with someone" omg its slower than kurtis but just as intense. I dont know if he knows or likes me. Kali says that he was watching me today. he was i caught him too but it could have been that i looked better than usual or something. I wish i knew. Kali-who gets everything right aobut my relationships-says that sinclair likes me. I've thought about it before...and how we are so competitive and how i have soo much fun with him. But i cant picture me liking him totally and actually admitting it. O me vaca! (o my cow in spanish) i feel so incredibly horrible about changing my mind after leading pat on. ITs horrible!! I'm sorry. I did think that i liked him. but i didn't. *sigh* and then theres jeff....jeff is great...funny, open and talkative. but i doubt he would admit to liking me if he did. But i have a little thing for james...and still im carrying a tiny flame for kurtis. DANGED IT. I hate liking someone who doesnt give a fuck about me.I sound like the biggest playa since..britney. so yeah signing off with my crazy love life again.

10.I loved the way that chris talked to me about good books

9.I love the way i get to dream aobut wonderful things that can happen when i get "THE PANTS" tomorrow night

8.I Love the fact that i get to go shopping after school

7.I love the fact that we had a school football game...during school (btw the freshman-senior tem kicked our butts)

6.I love the way i have great friends to be dumb with

5.I love being able to stare at donny and jeff conspicuously all through chapel

4.I love being able to think about yesterday with pat and what might happen

3.I loved dancing in the rain this weekend and having the memory of the water drenching me

2.I love the MUSIC that i heard this morning on the radio

1.I LOVE THE WAY ANYONE ACTUALLY CARES ABOUT ME

HMMM i really ought to ask if mr. hottpants needs to use my comp..hmm hes standing over there looking all lonely and adorable YAY. wow he soo hott. emily guessed it on the first try. bummer. ha ha i just read donny's shirt...ONE FISH TWO FISH RED FISH BLUE FISH. so yeha im happy. tori says i sohuld go for chad ..he he i used to like the kid. hes a freshie but a very cute and funny one. hmm so yeah im sound like any awful player but im not..i oculd never get more than 2 guys to like me at a time...wait yeah i oculd...ok yeah im stupid gonna sign off now...wait....hope gus is having fun down there....in mississippi. without me. i miss talking to you..we used to do itr all the time but we4 never do anymore. so yeah i also havent talked to krysta in a week and havent heard form kurtis since uhhh...camporee whatever. loser. at least pocketsized still loves me *sniffle* OMG Donny just came over and talked to me about the cd hes burning. *sigh* hes great....I'm gonna ask him to the banquet...hope he'll say yes..to badi cant invite anyone form outside the school., dumb-ass rules! muchloves....-me

urgh im just too lazy and busy...anyways muchloves...ill make a good psot eventually

NEWSFLASH:

Im getting married to james sometime....im gonna have a best man..and a maid of honor. get over it. oh yeah I HATE FLOWER GIRLS! i wanna flower boy and a bible girl!!! the boy needs to be an angelic blonde boy..named TRISTAN. ok so ive already hired my 2 year old cuz..he could handle it. its gonna be in the bahamas or hawaii and james is paying for flight tickets. we are gonna rent out a hotel for the week. just for me and my peeps anyways yeah yall are invited...ok time to return to lame-o normalness (wait was i ever normal???) ok yeah talk to yall later days.      -me

OO YAY! i talked to gus last night for the first time in ages. he makes me luagh still. ive figured out that im smart on paper and in my head just not verbally. if you get my drift. ok yeah Marlisa got to talk to kurtis last night! LOSER. anyways i havent been on when he was and we havent talked since camporee. this one guy dones twant to add me to something because he thinks my loyalties lean towards someone other than him and he doesnt want me snichting. AHH. golly like i would he knows too much aobut me. so yeah im washing "THE PANTS" i have too. kali and i rolled down a hill and i got them grass stained. i also made out in them.. the blodd is not coming off and i played in the rain twice in them. i need to wear them tonight  when i make the most important phone call of my life. i cannot explain anything aobut it except that its involves admitting something. why do people do dumb things? ok now on a lighter note i want to write down a list of things  that make me happy. i dont know how many i can get before class is over but ill continue it later:

1.kisses

2. playing dress up

3.dancing to oldies

4.wondering whta it would have been like to date elvis

5.adding chords to my lyrics

6.having a homework free day

7.getting motivated and actually doing my homework at home

8.passing a test i didnt study enough for

9.being able to watch donny conspicuously during bio class

10.seeing pat

11. being able to frickle with kali

12.frolicking in the rain

13.wonderful dreams

14.being able to flirt and get away with it

15.new clothes

16. finding something great at a  thrift store

17. modifying my clothes

18.swing dancing with my girls

 19.staring up at jesse mccartney's face as i fall asleep

20. eating ice cream and not caring about my weight

21. getting my lessons in school right away

22. laughing so hard i start crying

23. being able to think over all my memories

24. pictures of stupid moments

25. phone calls from friends

26. when nikki does the dishes during my turn

27. CHEESECAKE

28. lemon creek

29. climbing trees

30. friends

31. music

32. avril and kelly

33.green day and fall out boy

34. being able to sing with a great band such as KleeR Red making me sound great

Fill It Out If You Bored

What Would You Do If…

1. I died from natural causes:

2. I kissed you:

3. I lived next door to you:

4. I started smoking:

5. I stole something:

6. I was hospitalized:

7. I ran away from home:

8. I got into a fight and you weren't there?:

9. I got my heart broken:

What Do You Think Of My...

10. Personality:

11. Eyes:

12. Hair:

13. Laugh:

14. Family:

15. Body

Would You..

16.Keep a secret if I told you one?:

17.Hold my hand?:

18. Take a bullet for me?:

19. Keep in touch?:

20. Try and solve my problems?:

21. Love me?:

22.Date me?:

23. Dance w/ me?:

24.Make out w/ me?:

25. Be my friend?:

Have You Ever...

26. Lied to make me feel better?:

27. Wanted to kiss me?:

28. Wanted to kill me?:

29. Broke my heart?:

30. Kept something important from me?:

31. Thought I was unbearably annoying?:

32.Thought I was crazy?:

Random Stuff..

33. What reminds you of me?..

34. Am I your Friend?...

35. Do you know the real me?...

36. If you could give me anything what would it be?..

37. How well do you know me?..

38. When's the last time you saw me?..

39. Are you gonna put this on yours to see what I say about you?.. 

ok its cleared for gus and alisa to come...just have to work out seating and make sure they get permission slips. I'm so pschyed. gotta go tho but hope i can see you guys in a few days. YAY.

Taken from grogeous alex...guys..read and reread this if you dont do these things. girls..sublty have your boyfriends read this...it might be helpful.

This was written by a guy who has years of experience. Believe you me, most of them are true about girls....

1. Whatever you do, don't just show up at her house...she runs around in her underwear just like we do.
2. DON'T CHEAT ON HER. It may seem foolproof, but girls tell each other everything about everything. Trust me, she WILL find out and you will be mud.
3. Beware of every single male relative and all guy friends. Any of them would kick your ass at the drop of a hat, and a lot of them wouldn't even wait for the damn hat.
4. Never miss an opportunity to tell her she's beautiful.
5. Don't refuse to kiss her in front of your friends. If they laugh at you, it's just because they're jealous.
6. If she slaps you hard, you deserved it.
7. Don't be afraid to touch her if you want to. If she's going out with you in the first place, it's because she likes being in your arms.
8. If you don't sleep with her, DON'T tell your friends that you did.
8.5 If you DO sleep with her, DON'T tell your friends that you did.
9. You can be dirty minded in private, really...most of them are not offended by it...
10. Not all of them eat like birds, a lot of them can eat like whales.
11. Most of them don't mind paying half of everything, but they do discuss these things with their friends. Realize that if you make your girlfriend pay half all the time, everyone will know about it and your friends will know you're a pussy..
11.5 Do you honestly need all your money that much? Be a man, pay all the time!
12. Every girl should eventually get three things from her boyfriend- a stuffed animal, one of his sweatshirts, and a really pretty ring. Even if it's not a serious relationship.
13. Make sure she gets home safely as often as you can. If you're dropping her off, walk her to the door. If you aren't dropping her off, call to be sure she's home safely.
14. If a guy is bothering her, it is your right to beat the shit out of him.
15. If you're talking to a female friend of yours, pull your girlfriend closer.
16. Never, EVER slap her, even if it's just in a joking way. Even if she swats you first, and says, "Oh, you're so dumb" or something, never make any gestures back.
17. Go to a chick flick once in a while. She doesn't care whether you enjoy it or not, it just matters that you went.
18. You're dead meat if you can't get along with their pets, parents, and best friends. Be prince charming to their friends, Mr. Polite to their parents, and make sure to be nice to their animals.
19. Don't flirt with their moms...that's just freaky.
20. Don't be freaked out by PMS. It's not gross, and it really does make them feel like shit, so be understanding.
21. If you don't like the way they drive, you do it.
22. If you're officially dating, and you're introducing her to your friends, you'd better damn well introduce her as your girlfriend.
23. Don't stress where you go for every date. They really only want to be with you.
24. If they complain that something hurts, rub it for them without being asked.
25. Girls are fragile. Even if you're play fighting/wrestling, be very gentle.
26. Memorize their god damn birthdays. You forget her birthday and you're basically screwed for life.
27. Don't marinade the cologne, but smell good.
28. Don't give her something stupid for her birthday or Christmas or Valentine's day. It doesn't have to be expensive, but it has to be meaningful. Jewelry is always nice.
29. If you think the relationship isn't going to last, don't wait to find out. It will only hurt you more if you draw it out.
30. After you've been dating for a while, realize that they really have started to trust you. When you have a girlfriend who truly trusts you, you have a lot more responsibility, privilege and control than you would think. Be careful with it, most guys would kill for that kind of power, and it can be lost in a nanosecond.

Announcer:  Welcome and goodmorning. We open todays "tootsie pop show" with Amanda as your host for today. She will be informing all you bright eyed morning listeners about her weekend and give you tips for your future backpacking trips.

Okay now i become normal again oh wait thats not supposed to happen until the end of the post. aww whatever. ok im not normal. ok on friday night we started out started as we met at the bus with out the book. SNIFFLE! and yeah i had forgotten to bring alligators and so did marlisa so we stopped at the bradfields and erica give me some.  we get in the bus and kali marlisa and i sang kelly clarkson and rob thomas ok i sang rob thomas and marlisa gave me weird looks and kali looked out the window blankly.  ( just like the ocean under the moon and its as same as the emotion that i get from you. you got the kinda love that can be so cool give me your heart make it real or else forget about it) ok yeha we get there and put up our tents and then put on our gianormous packs and walked around the lake to get a feel for backpacking. it was a first for alot of us. kali and kem looked like they were moving their packs were so huge. ok then we went back and started a fire to make out food with in the dark. I have a sandwich and then a cup of hot tottie (hot cocoa) then as we are eating smores without the graham crackers we have worship.

Annoucer: We interrupt this show as the wiggles come onto the TV singing big red car! (OMG THEY ARE SERIUSOLY SINGING HE HE HE!!) ok now back to the tootsie pop show.

Yeah marlisa and kali slept with me that night.  marlisa was like "I wanna sleep wit heveryone. I wanna sleep with serr and johnny and kali....) Kali and i kept each other warm by hugging each other all night...too bad gus wasnt there :) he he  we joked about that the whole weekend. yeah i slept with kali. shes warm. (we woke up from 3 to six thirty and couldnt fall back to sleep until then. when we woke up again at 7 and stayed awake until 7:30 and the nwoke up at eaight. the whole time we were laughing and giggling) ok then we ran to the bathroom like "midget's running with bad breath" cuz it was morning and all. Ok then we started hiking and it was fun we were singing and picking up trash and stuff. we werew in a game area so we kept finding shells. oh yeah make sure to stop on top of logs to make sure that there are no snakes under it. ok yeha when we stopped for lunch FINALLY kali and i went off into this place  that had been all burned and there was burnt stumps and stuff but it was soo beautful because of the way it was all growing back after something bad had happened. the grass was soo soft. yeha i tried a bunch of weird food that kali brought. uhh soy jerky, shiitake mushroom jerky, freezedried veggies and we ate dried fruit. ok then we hiked till we got to the other camp site and we amke ramen and stuff. it was yummy. then kali and i kept pretending to come back form jogging when everyone knew we had been behind the bus shinig our flashlights. he he he it was funny!!!then we made pretty marshmallows light brown and goey on the inside. oh yeah kem just sticks hers in the flames and blows the mout and eats them all icky and crunchy.  then we made bread on a stick it was yummy cept for the fact that we kept dropping pieces into the fire. then we went to sleep and this time kali slept in the middle not me. when we woked up after sleeping the whole night this time. oh yeha we sang the wiggles all day! FRUIT SALAD YUMMY YUMMY ! FRUIT SALAD YUMMY YUMMY! YUMMY YUMMY ! YUMMY YUMMY FRUIT SALAD! ok that was fnu. then we sang more kelly clarkson and maroon 5. before we left while we were waiting for the bus kali and i started to walk around the lake barefooted. it was really cold but refreshing. i was like "kali do we have any food left?" and she said " uhh we have tic tacs and bubble gum." so i was like "YAY the 2 major food groups!!" ok yeah in the bus we sang more maroon 5 and other stuff. then we went t otaco bell and flushed the toiloets he he he . RUNNING WATER! there were 2 cute college aged guys there and i was flirting with  them from a distance. then at shermanns ice cream place...there were some really |REALLY REALLY CUTE GUYS! he gave me an extra scoop or rainbow sherbert after asking me 3 times if i was sure that was what i wanted and he was like "SUGAR or plain?" with the emphasis on SUGAR! and then just to be able to stay longer i was asking him for a spoon and he was like sure...and when he put it in my hand he made sure to touch my wrist and took a little too long to remove his hand. then when we were walking out he walked to the window so he would be able to see me. I dont think he saw me wink at him tho. URGH HE WAS SOO CUTE!! i am soo keeping the spoon. i wrote on it about hi. *sigh* he is sooo cute!! i need someone to take me to shermanns sometime. wow he is soo cute!! then we drove home. oh yeah kali had me get a 7 layer at taco bell i liked it alot. ok yeha sometime klai and i will write the list of things weve done together but, alas, that time is not now. so yeha laters guy!!

ok this one is for all the people who actually keep up with my life. its getting confusing again in the guy department. I finally found out why Pat hasnt called from his brother. he didnt think i had time for him so he didnt make time for me. With every other relationship of mine i called the guy, made the moves, and sometimes asked him out. but this time i wanted to be tradtional and not do any of that. but i guess he took me as the kinda girl that would and now we havent talked for 2 weeks. urgh i suppose i should call him. i mean i do like him...i think.

i had a dream about michael..not saying which one in case someone reads this that shouldn't. in this dream he wanted to talk to me but there was too mayn people nad too much noise so he pulls the fire alarm. its illegal and all so he gets arrested before we get teh chance to talk. anyways i think that there might be something left there that we need to talk about but i know im totally over him. maybe we jsut need to tlak about something. i have no idea but it was just a weird dream. oh yeah he is now known as my "dream guy"

wow if any of you have read the post about the cute ice cream boy that i met at shermanns ice cream parlos on sunday then this will make sense to you. I think in the few minutes we werwe aware of each others existence more sparks flew faster than any other guy ive ever met. it was like love at first sight. *sigh* if i ever see this guy again i will run up to him and kiss him before he has a chance to get away. i dont know any thing about him...name, age, school, grade, town, friends, status...anything. but i really like him. i think im gonna go to shermanns this weekend just to see him and get his digits. hmm i should go and wait for him to ask me. he was gonna ask me on sunday. i think..but his boss told him to hurry up with the orders then go sweep. ahh he is soo pretty.

i talked to byrana (PICKLE) yesterday for the first time in ages. this year she and andrew have become pretty close friends. i want to know if andrew and i are okay so i got her number and called her. she is supposed to be like "yeah i was talking to amanda yesterday. hey andrew! didnt you guys go out or something?" and just tell me how he reacts to my name and whether or not he misses me or anything. so yeah. i was the one who had his sumber and he got a knew phone so i purposely "lost" it. oh well if he wants to talk to me he can get my email from pickle.

This is for Drew. today in chapel (right after i reminded emily to bring hte 6th harry potter book to school tomorrow) they had us watch a movie on wicca. i dont want to sound hypo cryitcal of anything but i really think wicca isnt as bad as we adventist portray it as. i want to know more aobut it. i know that you worships nature and there is a woman creator instead of a man as god but im confused. im not switching religions but i m just curious. so yeha drew....make a post or something.

Kali and kem came to our school today and sang a song with dava for chapel. it sounded really good guys. even tho dava kept over pwoering you guys she sounds alot worse on her own ;) j/p i love her...i think. so yeh fellow asian you rokked out!

EMINEM LYRICS

Just Lose It


[Intro]
[Eminem making sounds]
Ok..
Guess who's back?
Back again
Shady's back
Tell a friend
Whaaaaaaaa

Now everyone report to the dance floor
To the dance floor, to the dance floor
Now everyone report to the dance floor
Alright Stop!.....Pajama time

[Verse 1]
Come here little kiddies, On my lap
Guess who's back with a brand new rap?
And I don't mean rap as in a new case of child molestation accusation
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
No worries, papa's got a brand new bag of toys
What else could I possibly do to make noise?
I done touched on everything, but little boys
That's not a stab at Michael
That's just a metaphor, I'm just psycho
I go a little bit crazy sometimes
I get a little bit out of control with my rhymes
Good God, dip, do a little slide
Bend down, touch your toes and just glide
Up the center of the dance floor
Like TP for my bunghole
And it's cool if you let one go
Nobody's gonna know, who'd hear it?
Give a little "poot poot", it's OK! [Fart Sound]
Oops my cd just skipped
And everyone just heard you let one rip

[Chorus]
Now I'm gonna make you dance
It's your chance
Yeah boy shake that ass
Oops I mean girl girl girl girl
Girl you know you're my world
Alright now lose it
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
Just lose it
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
Go crazy
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
Oh baby
(HA-HA)
Oh baby, baby
(HA-HA)

[Verse 2]
It's Friday and it's my day
Just to party all the way to sunday
Maybe til monday, I dunno what day
Everyday's just a holiday
Crusin' on the freeway
Feelin' kinda breezy
Got the top down, lettin' my hair blow
I dunno where I'm goin'
All I know is when I get there
Someone's gonna "touch my body"

Excuse me miss, I don't mean to sound like a jerk
But I'm feelin' just a little stressed out from work
Could you punch me in the stomach and pull my hair?
Spit on me, maybe gouge my eyes out? (Yeah)
Now, what's your name girl?
What's your sign?
[Dr Dre] "Man, you must be up out your mind"
DRE! (HA-HA)
Beer Goggles! blind!
I'm just tryna unwind now I'm

[Chorus]
Now I'm gonna make you dance
It's your chance
Yeah boy shake that ass
Oops I mean girl girl girl girl
Girl you know you're my world
Alright now lose it
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
Just lose it
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
Go crazy
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
Oh baby
(HA-HA)
Oh baby, baby
(HA-HA)

[Verse 3]
It's Tuesday and I'm locked up
I'm in jail and I don't know what happend
They say I was running butt naked
Down the street screaming
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
Well I'm sorry, I don't remember
All I know is this much
I'm not guilty
They said, "Save it, boy we gotcha you on tape
yellin' at an old lady 'touch my body!'"

Now this is the part where the rap breaks down
It gets real intense, no one makes a sound
Everything looks like it's 8 Mile now
The beat comes back and everybody lose themselves
Snap back to reality
Look it's B.Rabbit!
Yo you signed me up to battle!?
I'm a grown man!
Chubba chubba chubba chubba chubba chubbie
I don't have any lines to go right here so, chubba teletubbie!
Fella's (WHAT?!) Fella's (WHAT?!)
Grab you left nut, make right one jealous (what?)
Black girls
White girls
Skinny girls
Fat girls
Tall girls
Small girls
I'm callin' all girls
Everyone report to the dance floor
It's your chance for a little romance whore
Butt squeezin' it's the season
Just go (HA-HA-HA-HA)
It's so appeasin'

[Chorus]
Now I'm gonna make you dance
It's your chance
Yeah boy shake that ass
Oops I mean girl girl girl girl
Girl you know you're my world
Alright now lose it
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
Just lose it
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
Go crazy
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
Oh baby
(HA-HA)
Oh baby, baby
(HA-HA)

[Outro]
UmMmMmm touch my body
UmMmMmm touch my body
Ooh boy just touch my body
I mean girl just touch my body

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i need to make a really long post later but i made up wiht pat last night. urgh i have the feeling im being taken for granted. psshhh im the one who called him. BIG SURPRISE. urgh im way to frikkin forgiving arent i?? i hate it sometimes cus people treat me like shit. lol whatever. anyways yeah. kali did you do it???? seriously you need to like NOW!!! anyways yeah muchloves yall..oh yeah steph call me tonight ok???

She says she's no good with words but I'm worse
Barely stuttered out, "A joke of a romantic," stuck to my tongue
Weighted down with words too over-dramatic
Tonight it's "It can't get much worse" vs. "No one should ever feel like..."

I'm two quarters and a heart down
And I don't want to forget how your voice sounds
These words are all I have so I'll write them
So you need them just to get by

(whispered part - Pete)
We're going into D-Minor

Dance, Dance
We're falling apart to half time
Dance, Dance
And these are the lives you'd love to lead
Dance
This is the way they'd love if they
knew how misery loved me

You always fold just before you're found out.
Drink up it's last call, last resort, but only the first mistake

I'm two quarters and a heart down
And I don't want to forget how your voice sounds
These words are all I have so I'll write them
So you need them just to get by

Why don't you show me the little bit of spine
you've been saving for his mattress, love

Dance, Dance
We're falling apart to half time
Dance, Dance
And these are the lives you'd love to lead
Dance
This is the way they'd love if they knew how misery loved me

Why don't you show me the little bit of spine
you've been saving for his mattress
I only want sympathy in the form of you
crawling into bed with me

Dance, Dance
Dance, Dance
Dance, Dance
Dance, Dance

So guys…I don’t supposed I should have supposed today to be a normal day seeing as it began abnormally.  It started out with my leaning over the edge of my loft bed 4 feet down to my dresser trying to hit the snooze button without falling off. Then when the alarm clock came back on they played “this love” by maroon 5.

I was so high I did not recognize
The fire burning in her eyes
The chaos that controlled my mind
Whispered goodbye and she got on a plane
Never to return again
But always in my heart

This love has taken it’s toll on me
She said goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won’t say goodbye anymore

I tried my best to feed her appetite
Keep her coming every night
So hard to keep her satisfied
Kept playing love like it was just a game
Pretending to feel the same
Then turn around and leave again

This love has taken it’s toll on me
She said goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won’t say goodbye anymore

I’ll fix these broken things
Repair your broken wings
And make sure everything’s alright
My pressure on her hips
Sinking my fingertips
Into every inch of you
Cause I know that’s what you want me to do

OMG I love maroon 5. Love it love it love it. Great music. Oh yeah then I wore my slippers to school. DOH! Lol anyways yeah they are like moccasin things but they are still my slippers. I am such an idiot. Heres a song that I heard and had to guess the name to look it up:

I Am Unwritten, Can't Read My Mind, I'm Undefined
I'm Just Beginning, The Pen's In My Hand, Ending Unplanned

Staring At The Blank Page Before You, Open Up The Dirty Window
Let The Sun Illuminate The Words That You Could Not Find
Reaching For Something In The Distance
So Close You Can Almost Taste It
Release Your Inhibitions

Feel The Rain On Your Skin
No One Else Can Feel It For You
Only You Can Let It In
No One Else, No One Else
Can Speak The Words On Your Lips
Drench Yourself In Words Unspoken
Live Your Life With Arms Wide Open
Today Is Where Your Book Begins
The Rest Is Still Unwritten

Oh, Oh

I Break Tradition, Sometimes My Tries, Are Outside The Lines (yeh yeh)
We've Been Conditioned To Not Make Mistakes, But I Can't Live That Way (oh oh)

Staring At The Blank Page Before You, Open Up The Dirty Window
Let The Sun Illuminate The Words That You Could Not Find
Reaching For Something In The Distance
So Close You Can Almost Taste It
Release Your Inhibitions


Feel The Rain On Your Skin
No One Else Can Feel It For You
Only You Can Let It In
No One Else, No One Else
Can Speak The Words On Your Lips
Drench Yourself In Words Unspoken
Live Your Life With Arms Wide Open
Today Is Where Your Book Begins

Feel The Rain On Your Skin
No One Else Can Feel It For You
Only You Can Let It In
No One Else, No One Else
Can Speak The Words On Your Lips
Drench Yourself In Words Unspoken
Live Your Life With Arms Wide Open
Today Is Where Your Book Begins
The Rest Is Still Unwritten

Staring At The Blank Page Before You, Open Up The Dirty Window
Let The Sun Illuminate The Words That You Could Not Find
Reaching For Something In The Distance
So Close You Can Almost Taste It
Release Your Inhibitions

Feel The Rain On Your Skin
No One Else Can Feel It For You
Only You Can Let It In
No One Else, No One Else
Can Speak The Words On Your Lips
Drench Yourself In Words Unspoken
Live Your Life With Arms Wide Open
Today Is Where Your Book Begins

Feel The Rain On Your Skin
No One Else Can Feel It For You
Only You Can Let It In
No One Else, No One Else
Can Speak The Words On Your Lips
Drench Yourself In Words Unspoken
Live Your Life With Arms Wide Open
Today Is Where Your Book Begins
The Rest Is Still Unwritten
The Rest Is Still Unwritten
The Rest Is Still Unwritten

I love this song..Anyways it “unwritten” by Natasha Bedingfield. Very, very pretty. So yeah kurtis didn’t sign off when I got on last night and I started up a convo. We talked for like a half an hour YAY. Then I was like well I need to get off but if you wanna call me…so he was like Ill just give you my number so you can call me later. YAY. I’m gonna tonight. We talked about how I thought it was weird when I liked him and he was like why was it weird??? It’s not like I'm some hideous beast or something. And I apologized and said that was NOT what I meant and told him how great and cute he was so he was like gosh stop I’m going to blush. (ok for those who don’t know he is not a fag but that was a joke we had cuz whenever someone was being really sweet to me around him I was always like “stop it you’re making me blush”) so yeah then he was like “you are really beautiful yourself” YAY. lol my mostest favoritest word ever.  Ok yeah none y’all care. Urgh whatever. I'll give you a play-by-play of the convo later. I look soooo bad today!! EWWW, ok yeah I love y'all and will write again later.

soo babes..hows life? just posting. lol gus is great. kali and i "need to talk about us" omg im gonna go call sinclair. ttyl.

“I simply remember my favorite things…and then I don’t feel soo bad”

Oh well I need the bloody pants and kali has decided it would be okay without it. AHH! Ok listen we have having this Christmas dance with a secret Santa and everything. And THE banquet this year I’ve decided even though it is a Sadie Hawkins im not going to plan anything now. I mean its in February and all. But back to the Christmas Dance. Im asking Donny. Tomorrow if all goes well. Its on the 11th and I want to make sure I’m the first to ask him. And well..i wanted to make sure that I had the pants to wear when I ask him in. Because if he says yes it would be great to have that as I memory in them if he says no…well I want them to comfort me..so yeha love ya…-Amanda

Ok jose is like right beside me...yeah him and brenden came over earlier. so yeh YUMMY. lol hmm as i  said before about a certain p-word! whatever. omg tinelle needs to go shopping with me she says. (howie day all the way right steph??) OMG i might maybe be able to go to their little cmap in THAT TOTALLY ROXX OUT!! omg i really want to go to Wakonda again. but kali wont be there so all of my places from camp meeting with mariah (IM TOTALLY MISING HER!) gus..you suck loser. j/p i love you right? (Actually I hate everyone) ok yeah now that i shoved panty hose away from the keyboard. guess who just called??? MR. RIGGINS. OMG anyways..i cant do that..not yet after HIM and all. yall understand. anyways. (to quote jose again :You want him) so yeah this is the "TEASE" talking again. tinelle would be soo disappointed in me. im sorry babe. our convo didnt work. too bad. 30 days is waaayyy too long. whoa ms. popularity has had one bf and little miss me (aka loser right andrew?) has had like...6 bf...and 3 other whatevers. oh wait pat...*AHEM* yall understand that one. He sucked real badly and was like the worst thing that has ever happened to anyone.(JOSE AGAIN)whatever. BRENDEN R IS HOTT> (sweaty at the thought of him.) (JOSE AGAIN) AHHH FREAKISH ONE. so yeah love yall..ttyl babes...gus have mummy call and talk to my grandma!! oh yeah emphasis  on the part that i am totally over you and you are in love with kali. kali kali kali..SEXY BEEOTCH that she is. i love you!! call me later babe. he he i am soo freaking retarded [read this out loud: WEE TODD IDD] he he or yeah and [HOOFHEARTED[ that one was from erica. so yeah

PS im green...green green green and im wearing it too...mmm my lips are sealed.

caleb and i talked for an hour after school and he eve nthinks brenden is a bad  idea. oh yeah he asked me out last night and i said yes. so yeah caleb thinks i sohuld get with my worstest enemy justynn mayo. anyways. caleb gave me a ride home..longer post later.

RELIENT K TOTALLY ROCKETHS MY STOCKINGS!!! hell yeah!! good-ass song. he he "i'm begging you, i'm begging you to be my escape"  and hes hott...double whammy. lmao. so my ghettos homebabes hows life? im great as if anyone cares. so yeha brenden is the guy i like..still. whatever. hes goning to a concert tonight that im not going to so we arent hanging out. yeah maybe tomorrow. anyways. im prolly going to the banquet with michael ferdinand. oOo green day covered in green slime..how much hotter can we get??? not very. oh well. "everything isn't meant to be ok" so yeah life is great ["LOSE IT OT GREEN DAY"isnt that a wee bit suggestive???].. havent talked to drew in ages. Alex freaking disappeared off the face of the planet. I MISS YOU LEX!! "i've been all around the world, i've been a new sensation" ok yeha jason what's up with the rocks abd the pitchforks? YOU TARD!! ok the girl in the mod is a sexy besat but still. ok next song...AHH Maroon 5!! HECK YES!! dang hes hott...so is she..."her heart is breaking in front of me and i have no choice cuz i won't say goodbye anymore " oh wow...sexy beasts everywhere....ok too explicit for david...dumb cow."my pressure on her hips sinking my fingertips into everyinch of you becuz i know thats who you want me to do" totally!! ok next song:we be burning...this ones for nikki ..great song to dance too...nice gay boy dancing....yeah baby!!he dances like me when i rap..he he so yeah he must look hott right?? *clears throat* are we supposed to be able to understand him at all? great jamaican vioce...eww black girl buttshots..ok sorry but asian girls are hotter right kali??? oOo nice car buddy. ok fefe...never heard this song before..ok shes cute..a little half-black girl punkrock. besides the weird..dancing..ill post the lyrics later..they are pretty good.oh well...EEEEE!!!! FRIKK YES!! AHH!!*SCREAMS LIKE GIRL AT A CONCERT* "ill keep you my dirty little secret dont tell anyone or youll be just another regret WHO HAS TO KNOW?" ah yayzer!!  omg i LOVE ALL AMERICAN REJECTS!!!

ok decided i needed a new paragraph..."i think the guy who's singing is hott" yeah sam he is DUH!! lol ok next..."if oyu wanna be with me baby there's a price to pay i'm a genie in a bottle baby..gotta rub me the right way" sorry but christina is cute so screw you. she can dance to. too bad she decided not to sing in ages. her latest song is ..beautiful or something. girl get a new CD!!gosh. i love her dance and the guy in her car is a sexy babe!!hmm i should try her how to pick up a guy tricka..hmm italics are great...ok now ill just keep track of songs this post is too long..

Here are the music videos i've watched at least part of as i wrote this:

Be my escape   -relient k

American idiot  -green day

Word play  -jason myraz

This love   -maroon 5

We be burnin   -sean paul

Don't let it go to your head   -fefe dobson

Dirty little secret   - all american rejects

Genie in a bottle  -christina aguilera

My humps  -black eyed peas    uh oh gus..

I don't care  -ricky martin   uhh ok...lets keep going...hes hott tho..

More than words  -frankie j  eww he sounds better than he looks..oh well black guys...cute song tho ..ok yeah moving on

Since you been gone  -kelly clarkson  great song but i dont wanna see her losing her temple..i can watch myself

She hates me  -puddle of mudd   oh baby oh baby...i love this song!!great yellow guitar!!hmm how many guys have sang this song bout me???

HECKS YES!! i saw allen and introduced him to a couple people. he thinks kali is cool... anyways brenden doesnt like him...im gonna have allen come over..and tell brenden not to..he pist me off today cuz he was eyeing allen weirdly. oh well. sitting between them was weird...im like a foot shorter and half the time i couldnt decide who to talk to and my skirt was getting me evil looks from the pastors. OH yeah...my legs got col when i was trying to find Allen so they looked reddish and it looked like i had this hott sunburn/tan. BTW: MY TAN IS REAL YOU TARD!! i havent gone tanning since i last went to the beach so everything i have is 100% natural. the Feast of Lights was hott!! it went perfectly. my solo was sweet and sinclair sounded soo freaking hott on his guitar. YEAH BABY!!oh speaking of babies...after we sang silent night in german (the bestest language ever) and spanish (oh mi vaca...) we were singing the 3rd line of the first verse in english and baby jesus fell asleep. how hott is that??anyways im bored and i need to update xanga so bye yall...

PS steph ill try to call you  if allen comes over..

GEEK IN THE PINK  -JASON MRAZ

Well, let the geek in the pink take a stab at it
If you like the way I'm thinkin' baby wink at it
I may be skinny at times but I'm fat fulla rhymes
Pass me the mic and I'm a grab at it
Well, isn't it delicious, crazy way that I'm kissin'
'Cause baby listen to this, don't wanna miss it while it's hittin'
Sometimes you gotta fit in to get in
But don't ever quit cause soon I'm gonna let you in but see

I don't care what she might think about me
You can vibe without me if you want
I could be the one to take her home
Baby we could rock the night alone
If we never get down it wouldn't be a let down
But sugar don't forget what you already know
I could be the one to turn you out
We could be the talk across the town
Don't judge me by the color, confuse it for another
You might regret what you let slip away

Like the geek in the pink
Like the geek in the pink, pink, pink
The geek in the pink, yeah

Well this relationship fodder don't mean to bother nobody
But Cupid's automatic musta fired multiple shots at her
Because she fall in love too often that's what the matter
At least I talk about it keep a pattern of flattery and
She was starin' through the doorframe
Eyeing me down like already a bad boyfriend
Well she can get her toys outta the drawer then
Cause I ain't comin' home I don't need that attention, see

I don't care what she might think about me
You'll get by without me if she wants
I could be the one to take her home
Baby we could rock the night alone
If we never get down it wouldn't be the let down
But sugar don't forget what you already know
I could be the one to turn you out
We could be the talk across the town
Don't judge it by the color, confuse it for another
You might regret what you let slip away

Hey baby look at me go
From zero to hero
You better take it from a geek like me
I can save you from unoriginal dum-dums
Who wouldn't care if you com...plete him or not

So what I've got a short attention span
A coke in my hand
Because I'd rather have the afternoon, relax and understand
My hip hop and flip-flops it don't stop with the light rock
A shot to mock you kinda puts me in the tight spot
The hype is nothing more than hoo-ha so I'm
Developing a language and I'm callin' it my own
So take a peek into the speaker and you'll see what I mean
That on the other side the grass is greener

I don't care what she might think about me
You'll get by without me if you want
I could be the one to take you home
Baby we could rock the night alone
If we never get down it wouldn't be the let down
But sugar don't forget what you already know
I could be the one to turn you out
We could be the talk across the town
Don't judge it by the color, confuse it for another
You might regret what you let slip away

Like the geek in the pink
Well, I'm the geek in the pink, yo pink pink
Geek is the color for fall, I'm the geek in the pink yeah
So I'm the geek yo, in the pink yo.
Hahah, y'all geek is the new color for fall
I'm the geek in the pink

well oh well. so yeah my life is a soap opera again. Jeff wants to date me...but hes a cheerleader! urgh NO ! besides..hes blonde! the only blonde that i would date as of right now is michael s. hes a babe and all and i told chris today that i would go for him. hes gonna tell michael but whatever. i doubt he will...so yeah. then theres justynn and caleb. i have a date with caleb this weekend and justynn and i hung out alot at the christmas party. i would go out with justynn and now they are pist at each other over me. they are like really close friends so i feel bad.

Ok yeah and then theres donny...i had a dream aobut him last night...we got a bible class together 2nd semester and we sat in the back together. he asked me out and i told him i was over him and that he should have asked me when i was in love with him. he said htat he had only been in one good relationship and she had broken his heart majorly so he wasnt brave enough to ask me. so yeah then e asked me to the valentine's banquet  and i said yes...ok then i wake up and i was all like yay i have a boyfriend and we are going to the banwuet together next weekend. then i realized it was DECEMBER 12!! ahh i was soo into that dream

so yeah i was cracking up every time i saw him today. the banquet rokked my socks. i was hott and everyone told me so. lol. so yeah marcus is hott! anyways yeah ill write more later!!

FALL OUT BOY

album: "From Under The Cork Tree" (2005)

--Cow Boy/Girl--
1] Do you have a couch in your front yard or porch? no
2] Do you drive a four-wheeler? can i yes...do i no
3] Do you ride fourwheelers? ditto
4] Do you like to get dirty? YES

5] Do you like country music? some
6] Do you have a broken car in your back yard? not broken ...undriven..

7] Do you own a cowboy hat? yes
8] Do you live on more then 2 acres? yeah
9] Do you have more then 4 different animals at your home? nope 3
T0TAL YES--->> 3

-Goth-
1] Do you wear eyeliner? Yes
2] Is most of your clothing dark? no
3] Do you think about death often? mine no..other peoples..sorry csi doesnt help much
4] Do you want to die? not today
5] Are you a social outcast? No
6] Are you pale? Yes! right now
7] Do you like Hot Topic? Yes
8] Do you enjoy IF YOU PISS ME OFF? uhh yeah.
T0TAL YES--->> 5

--Skater Punk--
1] Can you skateboard? yeah right..NO
2] Do you wear Vans? yeah

3] Do you do stupid stuff with your friends? yes
4] Have you gotten in trouble with the Cops? *coughyescough*
5] Do you watch the x-games? HECKS YES
6] Do you have any piercings? i have one in my belly button but its mostly healed so no for now
7] Do you like/wear mohawks? yes
8] Do you wear Band t-shirts?yeah

9] Have you called someone a poser? yeah
T0TAL YES--->> 7

--PREP--
1] Do you say the word "like"? yes
2] Do you shop at Hollister/Abercrombie&Fitch? sometimes..CLEARANCE RACK
3] Do you pop the collar? *coughyeahcough*
4] Do the people in Hot Topic scare you? no
5] Is the only nerd u like Seth Cohen? yeah
6] Do you watch LAGUNA BEACH? OMG YES
7] Do you like pop music? uh huh

8] Do you want/have a little dog? yep..minpin all the way
T0TAL YES--->> 7

--Hippie-
1] Is your hair long? Yes!
2] Do you own a tye-dye shirt?  yes.
3] Do you like the peace sign? I guess soo
4] Do You want to save the animals? horses and dolphins

5] Do you think war is unneccesary? nope

6] Is love essential in your life? yes
7] Have you smoked pot? ......
8] Do you like classic rock and trippy music? sure
T0TAL YES--->> 7

--Gangsta--
1] Do you act ghetto? yeah...holla 
2] Do you wear do-rags? EWW
3] Do you like hip-hop? yeah...we be burning..
4] Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world? uhh no
5] Do you believe he's alive? yeah

6] Do you like afros? pats is sexy..so yeah

7] Have you ever said "Fo Shizzle fo shizzle...my nizzle
8] Do you like to dance? HELLS YEAH
9] Do you own any Baby Phat or G-Unit? yeah..a tank top from BabyPhat 
T0TAL YES--->> 7

--Emo-
1] Do you cry often? yes inside where no one can see...NO
2] Do you wear hoodies? yes
3] Do you like soft music? yes
4] Do people not understand you? some dont..so yeah

5] Do you write your own songs? DUH
6] Ever dyed your hair red, black or dark? black once 
7] Do you cut your hair? yeah
8] Are you lonely right now? yeah..i miss brenden
9] Is Ohio for lovers? yeah...uhh who cares?

10] Do you wear black rimmed glasses? ha ha like NO
T0TAL YES--->> 7

--Surfer--
1] Do you surf? YES..but i suck
2] Do you wear flip flops year-round? YES!!
3] Is your hair shaggy? yeah for a girl i guessoh wait they tell me its not..so no
4] Do you wake up before 6 every morning? yeah

5] Do you own any pairs of shorts? yeah like 50
6] Are you tan? DUH
7] Do you want to be at the beach right now? YES or on a slope...whichever is mopre likely 
8] Do you hate tourists? yeah they are gay...fanny packs!!

T0TAL YES--->>7

--Geek--
1] Do you wear glasses? No
2] Do you get good grades? yes
3] Do you use an inhaler? no
4] Do you stick pens and calculators into your shirt pockets? no
5] Does your mom pick out your clothes? No
5] Are you on the computer often? Yes
6] Do you ever get picked on? Only kiddingly
7] Do you look forward to go to school? yeah PEOPLE
8] Are you shy around the opposite sex? only donny

T0TAL YES--->> 4
What did you get the highest on? Write it as your title..

SOMEONE PLEASE EXPLAIN THE POINT OF THIS SHOW!?!?!

ooOoo pretty colors!

lol i hope BRENDEN calls today!

HE HE he is a purdy one for sure!

MY english final was soo hot & i kicked ass as Mayella Ewell.

So yeah im out of colors in the rainbow so yeah love yall!!

"why are you smiling like that?"

"i don't know. i always smile! Smiling's my favorite!"

Lady: Do you like sugar?

Buddy: Does syrup have sugar?

Lady: mmm-hmm.

Buddy: Then YES!We elves try to stick to the 4 major food groups: candy, candy canes, candy corns and syrup.

OMG MY BEST CHRISTMAS PRESENT SO FAR!!!! MATCHBOZZ 20 IS GETTING BACK TOGETHER!!! OH GOSH OH GOSH!!! YAY!!!

The notebook is a sad story. but i like it. its sweet and romantic.  but now back to my life. *sigh* high school is over for the year. praise goodness. but now i am on break. christmas break this year is promised to be more interesting than summer vacation. Not that summer vacation was boring or anything but i have so much to do and explain to myself this year. Talk about new year's resolutions. I am going to have alot. Anthony and i talked last night and he helped me realize some things. many things. One of them is an answer to like 5 questions i have had....Why do all the other girls i know outside of my group of friends feel disdain for me? Because their boyfriends come to me to talk and they openly admire me. Guys watch me but i really dont think it means anything. And its not like they are in love with me just because of that. Now moving on to my second question...Why am I attracted to Anthony? because hes sweet and honest with me..always. Unlike some other people i know. Why do i get along better with guys than girls..even after we've broken up? Well this question isnt straightforward...its more like guys like me because i am smart and ditzy at the same time. I laugh at them and with them but i also laugh at myself. I will say anything that is on my mind. I can be quite offending but i'm real and they can tell that. I may be bitchy or snobbish but at least i'm not fake. EVER. if i were it would be because i am angry or hurt and pretending to be happy. Only 3 more questions...Why are Brenden and I together? Becuase besides liking each other immensly; he quits his badboy acts around me and doesnt keep acting like he doesnt give a fuck about anyone or anything.  Also because, my friends are soo against it that i simply must prove them wrong. Why do the english have all the cool words? smitten, keen, runners, flannel, jumpers...oh well..Oh gosh...bridget jones...got kissed..by a sexy brunette..i am..soo jealous...

ok yeah and i found what i thought was a sliver in my heel is actually  a half inch slit...i do not comprehend why its there tho..dry skin? it isnt even dry. but yeah its quite icky. oh yes..i hope that me and brenden kiss on christmas or christmas eve. YAY..that would rock my socks! so yes not that i have a splendid plan i shall now try to work it out..

1) Are your parents married or divorced? neither

2) Vegetarian? no

3) Heaven? :))

4) Come close to dying?i have almost drowned twice

5) What jewelry do you wear 24/7? my pink/black 69 sex bracelets

6) Are you eating? nope just finished my OJ

7) Do you eat the stems of broccoli? yeah

8) Makeup? yes at least eyeliner

9) Were you usually the dumper or the dumpee in your past relationships? The Dumper

10) Would you ever have plastic surgery? probably not

11) What do you wear to bed? last night i work a tank and my ex-bf frog pj pants
12) Have you ever done anything illegal? no comment
13) Can you roll your tongue? uh huh

14) Pluck your eyebrows? yes

15) What kind of watch(es) do you wear? the chezp ones!

16) Abortion? i wouldnt get pregnant to begin with

17) Hair color? brown

18) Future child's name..starr...rain...

19) Do you snore? i doubt it

20) If you could go anywhere in the world on a vacation, where would you go? australia..or france
21) Do you sleep with stuffed animals? yeah i have a horse

22) If you won the lottery, what would you do first? SHOP
23) Gold or silver? gold

24) Hamburger or hot dog? hamburger
25) If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would you choose? salad...

26) Beach, city, or country? beach

27) Who was the last person you touched? chrystal
28) Where do you eat? at home

29) When's the last time you cried? last week...
30) Have you loved somebody so much it makes you cry? one person...once
31) Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex? halloween or i dont know
32) Ever been involved with the police? yeah..my grandma works with them..and i know them on a first name basis

33) Believe in Santa? hecks yes

34) Do you talk in your sleep? yeah
35) Beach or pool? beach...
36) Can you cross your eyes? Yeah

37) What's your favorite song at the moment? doomed from the start...the urinal mints
38) Window seat or aisle? window

39) Ever met any famous bands/singers? sure...aaron carter count?

40) Do you feel that you've ever had a truly successful relationship? yeah uh no
41) Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? twirl

42) Rickie Lake or Oprah Winfrey? who the heck cares?

43) Would you ever admit to having done plastic surgery of any kind if confronted?i havent but yeah i would say i had if it was true

44) How long does your shower last? my last one like 20 minutes ago was like 25 minutes..i like water

45) Do you drive stick? i know how

46) Cake or ice cream? ice cream

47) Self-conscious?a little

48)What time do you get up? today..9:15..usually 6:30..unless i want to jog..then 5:30

49) Have you ever given money to a bum? nope

50) When was your first crush? hmm yeah...paul camerena

51) Where do you wish you were? mmhmm uh nowhere...

52) Have you ever broken someone's heart? yeah but too bad...love sucks right?
53) Ever been given a ring? yes

54) Longest relationship? 4 months

55) Last gift you received: a hott black skirt..last night
56) Last sport you played? janga..is that a sport?
57). Things you spend a lot of money on? makeup, my friends, clothes

58) Where do you live? BS usa

59) High school you attended: Andrews Academy

60) Last wedding attended:cliff's sister..my cousin..forgot her name...big families suck
61) Favorite fast food restaurant: bagette de france

62) Where do you work: nowhere

63) Can you cook? yes...i love it too
64) Most hated food? BBQ...EWW

65) Can you sing? yeah. but ask kali

66) Last concert attended: FOB.AAR

67) Last kiss? pat...hmm that was a long time ago..i aslmost kissed brenden tho...

68) Favorite Alcoholic drink: no comment

69) Current Crush? chris and brenden

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fun!!! anyways yeah this is for my chick friends...

First of all, gather 'round your tools: seam ripper, cheese grater, sandpaper, disposable razor, colored thread, instant coffee and/or bleach. Put the pants on and mark off the areas that should naturally become distressed; around the knees, pockets and thighs is a safe area to start. Rub the areas with the sandpaper, cheese grater or razor to begin with; this will make your jeans look the most "natural." For a more unfinished look, use a seam ripper to tear through the threads of the jeans randomly. For discoloration, mix up some instant coffee or bleach with water and then paint around the distressed areas. For something unique, hand-stitch some bigger holes with colored thread.

2006 is gonna rokk!!!

 i was reading some peoples blogs that have gotten at least one post a day for eight or more  months. that cool...but they are high. lol i want to try it. just a short post and whatnot. I doubt it will happen but these next 2 months are promising...as in full or excitement:

• teen snow outing-go up to cmap au sable (aka hte best place on earth...besides wakonda..i guess they can tie) and snowboard and see people i  havent seen in forever
• school starts-joy! gotta keep my grades up
• chris- i have to see him...almost everyday...dangit
• my bday-YAY!! what comes before part b??? febuary 7..good date...just hoping everything works out for me to have a big sweet sixteen part-A!
• nikkis and chrystals and marlisas and shanes and dereks bdays- yup everyone is getting older...in january! ew icky month..febuary is better but i have to get people stuff...ugh..what to buy what to buy??
• the banquet- gotta get a date...keep the date and make sure all my friends get dates, avoid seeing chris and acting like i care that hes going with someone else, accomplish audrey hepburn hair, find the perfect shoes, shawl,gloves, and tiara to go with my vera wang gold dress, and keep justin off me
• GRONDHOG'S DAY- my favorite holiday...but its whethre or not the sun is shining tha tdetermines the end of winter..not BOB (the actual name of the groundhog)
• VALENTINE'S DAY- yay! choclate! kisses! cards! love! hate..ok sorry had to put that one in there...doesnt anyone else ever get evil looks or sarcastic cards??besides the whole guys department means something doesnt it??
• there are other things..but my mind is blank..so im gonna go do my hair for church..hey are any of the rest of yall seventh day adventist?

5. Hollback girl   -Gwen Stefani

4. Behind These Hazel Eyes   -Kelly Clarkson

3. Boulvard of Broken Dreams   -Green Day

2. We Belong Together   -Mariah

1. Since You've Been Gone   -Kelly Clarkson

w00t w00t..yes gus has both me and kali saying that..ok I'm glad #5 got in the list..he he right gus? cuz he aint no hollaback girl and i have so many memories of that song...osk kosh..dancing around singing "this s**t is bananas B-A-N-A-N-A-S" and wakonda..on the way to noah's ark. anyways great song..

#4 yeaaayuh!! kelly in da house! kelly is my girl..i met here way back when she was working as a waitress..lol seriously! i was 8...yeah anyways. this song and the first one are for kali and sumi tari!

#3 is great..havent heard is much lately on the radio station here but i love green day and i love this song..it aint my anthem but its good to listen to on those rainy days thats its too cold to play in the rain.

#2 uhh no comment except for EWW good lyrics..i guess but NEO could have done alot better..this has got to be the most repetitive annoying, over played song of the year!!

#1*confetti and balloons explode from the sky* yay! more kelly! anyways yes great great song! i wish it could be my anthem now. chris sucks! lol i love him..ooOoo a hint for all yall..dont fall for the guy who acts like your big brother...he was like drews replacment...oh well. anyways this is a great song..go listen to it. i  the music video...too bad Im gone didnt make it...  but only the best like this song..which is why kali and i  it! anyways yeah go listen to these songs!! i love all yall. and hope you have a wonderful news years eve!!

Hey Mama  -black eyed peas

(la la la la la)
Hey mama, this that shit that make you groove, mama
Get on the floor and move your booty moma
We the blast masters blastin' up the jamma
(REEEEEEEWIIIIIIND)
Cutie cutie, make sure you move your booty
Shake that thing like we in the city of sin, and
Hey shorty, I know you wanna party
the way your body look realli make me really feel nauuughty
Cutie cutie, make sure you move your booty
Shake that thing like we in the city of sin, and
Hey shorty, I know you wanna party
the way your body look realli make me really feel nauuughty

I got a naughty naughty style and a naughty naughty crew
But everything I do, I do just for you
Im a little bit of old, and a bigger bit of Nu
The true niggers know that the peas come thru
We never cease(NOO), we never die no we never decease (NOO)
We multiply like we mathamatice
Then we drop bombs like we in the middle east
(The bomb bombas, the base move dramas)
Naw y'all knaw, who we are
y'all knaw, we the stars
Steady rockin' on y'alls boulevards
And, lookin' hard without bodygaurds
(I do) what I can
(Y'all come thru)will.i.am
And still I stand, with still mic in hand
(So come on mama, dance to the drama)

Hey mama, this that shit that make you groove, mama
(hey)get on the floor and move your booty mama
(yaw)we the blast mastas blastin' up the jamma
(hey)so shake your bambama, come on now mama
Hey mama, this that shit that make you groove, mama
(hey)get on the floor and move your booty mama
(yaw)we the blast mastas blastin' up the jamma
(la la la la la)

We the big town stumpas, and big sound pumpas
The beat bump bumps in your trunk trunkas
The girlies in the club with the big plump plumpas
And when I'm makin' love, my hip hump humps
It never quits(NOOOO) we need to carry 9mm clips(NOOOO)
Dont wanna squize trigger, just wanna squize t*ts
(lubaluba)cause we the show stoppas
And the chief rockas, number one chief rockas
Naw y'all knaw, who we are
y'all knaw, we the stars
Steady rockin' on y'alls boulevards
How we rockin' it girl, without body guards
Now she be, Fergie, from the crew
B.E.P., come and take heed, as we take the lead
(so come on papa, dance to the drama)

Hey mama, this that shit that make you groove, mama
(yaw)get on the floor and move your booty mama
(wuh)we the blast mastas blastin' up the jamma
(NAWWWW, NAWWW)
Cutie cutie, make sure you move your booty
Shake that thing like we in the city of sin, and
no fakin i know you see me shakin
and the way i break it down i got the whole world quakin
Off the Richter, off the Richter, off the Richter, off the Richter, off the Richter, off the Richter steady are you ready.

Hey shorty, I know you wanna party
the way your body look realli make me really feel nauuughty

But the race is not, for the swift
But who really can, take control of it
And tippa irie and the black eyed peas will be thhhheeerre
til infiniti, til infiniti, til infiniti, til infiniti, til infiniti
Tippa is ouuuuuut

Nosa dima shock, nosa dima ting
everytime you sit there i hear, bling bling
O wata ting, hear blacka sing
grinding, and winding
and the madda be moving in a perfect timing
and we dance and dance to the dancehall riddim
and we're really to nice, it finga lickin'
like rice and peas and chicken stuffing

Hey mama, this that shit that make you groove, mama
(hey)get on the floor and move your booty mama
(yaw)we the blast mastas blastin' up the jamma
(hey)so shake your bambama, come on now mama
Hey mama, this that shit that make you groove, mama
(hey)get on the floor and move your booty mama
(yaw)we the blast mastas blastin' up the jamma
(la la la la la [fade])

great dance song..hehe anyways

http://www.crushcalculator.com/content/love/669932256

it actualyy seriously works!!

tonight its 'it cant get much worse' vs. 'no one should feel like'..

yeah that sums right now...brenden is going to GLAA on monday. to stay...anyways yeah...

this is for gus...

there was  this guy andy...the first boy id ever fallen in love with. he was depressed. we were almost best friends but he was in lvoe with this girl he could never have. her name was sarah. she was the most beautiful girl id ever met but she was taken by justin. she had never looked his way but he was in love with her form the moment he met her. he would call me and talk about her laugh. then one day he said hed kill himself if she ever found out. i smiled and gave him a hug he looked at me and stood and walked away.

during the first week of july we were having laurens bday party. the adults who went with us to amish country were her parents and her uncle. we were all up at the top of the 500 foot look out tower and it was the most spectacular view ever. he was unusually quiet and i thought it was because he was breathless like me and lauren. she said hed be alrght and that we were gonna go down the the waterfall to wade for a while. ever one came with us but he just sat there staring. i promised myself it was ok to leave him but i promised myself id come right back. he just needs a moment to think, i told myself. lauren and i wandered off from the group to find a secluded pond to swim in. We sat and listen to the flowing water and the wind blowing through the trees and then there was low dull sound. We could feel the ground vibrate. we stood and ran out of the woods because we thought it was a sudden storm. the first thing i saw after coming out into the bright july sun was the lookout tower. blood flowing down the support beams and stair ways. i threw up and passed out.

he shot himself because of her.i wanted to cry for him forever. it was like losing half of me that i never thought id miss. I havent seen lauren luvvy since the funeral. i went to the academy and she stayed in public. i havent allowed myself to think about it since her birthday last year. death is one of the worst things that can happen. guss story about his friend from elementary school reminded me of andy. so yeah..i feel ya.

PANIC! at the disco

Hellogoodbye

go listen NOW

Bye Bye Bye Lyrics from N Sync

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(heyhey) Byebyebye Byebye... Byebye... Ohoh.. I’m doin’ this tonight You’re probably gonna start a fight. I know this can’t be right. Hey baby come on I loved you endlessly When you weren’t there for me. So now it’s time to leave and make it alone I know that I can’t take no more It ain’t no lie I wanna see you out that door Babybyebyebye... Bye bye Don’t wanna be a fool for you Just another player in your game for two You may hate me but it ain’t no lie Babybyebyebye... Bye bye Don’t really wanna make it tough I just wanna tell you that I had enough. It might sound crazy But it ain’t no lie Babybyebyebye (ohoh) Just hit me with the truth Nowgirl you’re more than welcome to. So give me one good reason Baby come on I live for you and me And now I really come to see That life would be much better once you’re gone. I know that I can’t take no more It ain’t no lie I wanna see you out that door Babybyebyebye... Bye bye Don’t wanna be a fool for you Just another player in your game for two You may hate me but it ain’t no lie Baby byebyebye... Bye bye Don’t really wanna make it tough I just wanna tell you that I had enough (ooh ooh) It might sound crazy But it ain’t no lie Babybyebyebye I’m giving up I know for sure I don’t wanna be the reason for your love no more Bye bye I’m checkin’ out I’m signin’ off Don’t wanna be the loser and I’ve had enough Don’t wanna be your fool In this game for two So I’m leavin’ you behind Byebyebye... I don’t wanna make it tough (wanna make it tough) But I had enough And it ain’t no lie (byebye baby...) Byebye Don’t wanna be a fool for you Just another player in your game for two (I don’t wanna be your fool) But it ain’t no lie Baby byebyebye... Don’t really wanna make it tough (don’t really wanna make it tough) I just wanna tell you that I had enough (that I had enough). Might sound crazy But it ain’t no lie Byebyebye

Only Hope Lyrics from Mandy Moore

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NE-YO LYRICS

So Sick


Mmmm mmm yeah
Do do do do do do do-do
Ohh Yeah

Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cuz right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cuz you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger then this
(enough is enough)
No more walkin round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Cryin over you

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calender I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Dont make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
Let it go
Turning off the radio

Cuz I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

Said I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishin you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Why can't I turn off the radio?

GUS REMEMBER JON FROM CAMP MEETING!! YAY!! I IM TALKING TO HIM!! YAY!!! HEHE! HE LEFT FOR A POWDER PUFF GAME JUST NOW!! LOSER!!

well today should be cool. i guess. davas fish died yesterday. tis sad. funeral after school today. ok last night i was talking to the dadinator online. tis one of my favoritest peoples to talk to on the comp. anthony wants to hook up sometime. idk about that. OMG DOLLBOY (CHRIS) asked me to his homecoming this weekend. He lives 2 hours away but that would be soo hott! and i could try my dress out. tis al little big from my hips up. but it looks really good on me. i can pull of the vera wang mermaid dresses. sooo yeah....anwhos. i went to kalis and kems yesterday.great fun. DANIEL IS HOTT1 haha him and kem are adorkable together. i now take back everything i  have said about serr and kem. tis paled in comparison. haha i loves you! bye guys..gotta go put some clothes and and blow dry my hair. just got outta the shower and i doubt they would let me show up to school in a towel. 

today is green THURSDAY! go put on your horny clothes..lol yeah you know it. im bored..davas site is quite drab and dreary...she needs a makeover..not her...her site...shes pretty already.hehe yes...green thursday..

PS BRENDEN CUT HIS HAIR!!! OMG I CANNOT WAIT TO SEE IT!!! HOLY CRAP!

Can you name 21 people you can think of right off the top of your head? Dont read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 21 people. Ready, Start!

People:

1. Gus
2. Sincliar
3. Chris
4. Kali
5. Steph
6. Nikki
7. Allen
8. Lauren Snell
9. DADINATOR
10. Marcus
11. Drew
12. Kem
13. Daniel
14. Jose
15. Brenden
16. Marlisa
17. Mariah
18. Jeannie
19. Krysta
20. James
21. Kurtis

THE QUESTIONS:

1. How did you meet 14?  
Jose-thru kali..at somewhere..i dont remember

2. What would you do if you never met 6? 
Nikki- prolly not have been born..my sister

3. What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?

Ewww..my dad and pocket sized asian!

4. Did you ever like 5

Yes im madly in love with steph

5. Would 4 and 12 make a good couple?

Hehe yes of course…THEY ARE SISTERS

6. Describe 8:

I HATE HER!! We got into a fist fight/ cat fight last night.. I WANT HER DEAD!

7. Do you think 13 is attractive?

Yeah hes sexxi..LA BOY 

8. Tell me something humiliating about 17:

If pisses her off that her older brother wanted to make out with me

9. Do you know any of 4's family members?

All of them…they are practically related to me

10. What's 21's favorite color?

Orange..i don’t know

11. What would you do if 18 just confessed they liked you? 
laugh at her..STUPID COUSIN 

12. What language does 20 speak?

ASIAN..ha english

13. Who is 9 going out with?

Hehe idk ask drew..haha his WIFE CJ

14. What grade is 16 in?

Class of 2008!! Yeah my WHITE GIRL

15. When's the last time you talked to 13?

Today at church

16. What is 2's favorite band? 

KLeeR ReD..hed better like his own band…I SING

17. Would you ever date 7?

Yeah…allen is sexy what can I say?

18. Would you ever date 12?  
sure..KEMM WANNA GO OUT!?! 

19. Is 15 single?

Ughh…yeah my boyfriend is single

20. What is 19's last name?

Dunno haven’t talked to her in a while

21. Would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 2?

Yes…after last night…wow...

22. What school does 3 go to?

Andrews Academy

23. Where does 15 live?

BS MICHIGAN

24. What's your favorite thing about 10? 
hes sexxi…nice hair dude…and as he says..SMOKIN HOTT

25. Have you seen number 1 naked?

Ya know…idk…not for a long time…

That was fun!

brenden ran away from the military reform school his rents sent him to..called me from a payphone...his mom called..i turned him in..he called back..i kept him on till the police showed up....so yeah....interesting time. his mom said he respects me and im a good influence on him. she was crying and saying thank you. he was like "my mom called? what did she say???" i was like "shes worried about you" "does she care really? how much?? tell me how much!!!" i was like whoa..i guess that means alot to him. i miss him. oh well. twill be good for him if he sticks it out. kai doesnt want to come to my party for any reason other than me. hes like if andrew says anything...gosh i told him if he or andrew say anything to each other ill kick em both out. but yeah...

DAVID ZAPATA is coming to my PARTY!! YEAHYUHH! so excited! hes all like " i dont have a present" hehe how sweet...but yeah...my life tis odd.

FEBRUARY SEVENTH TWO-THOUSAND AND SIX

today is my sixteenth birthday. Twas a very good day. Kai just told me he loves me. my best birthday so far. Im listening to eminem. Drew is going to call me in forty minutes. I swear if drew ever does anything or anything ever happens to him...wow. Last night i dreamt that he shot himself. I woke up cry up crying. I made him promise he never would. I had a very good time at my party as did my friends. Kai and Jeff talked politics with my grandma till like 12:30. hehe yeah well...KERRY IS A PUMPKIN!! hehe yup..but yeah...ill post more later...

BOMBOCLAATE!!

BLOODCLAATE!!!

BOMBORAS!!!

RASCLAATE!!

FUCKERY!!!!

PUSSYCLAATE!!

rastafari..

TO ALL OF YOU!!!

so heres the story from A-Z...(you wanna get with my you betta listen carefully..)

aight..so heres whats going down..i looked hott at the banquet..ill put some pics up lata...im breaking  up with my boyfriend the day before valentines day...yeah thats great huh?

aww crap..a lot going on in my life..cant think of any of it right now..ill write later...grrrr

Dear Valentine,

I have no idea who or where you are. As of yesterday I thought I was going to have a boyfriend over valentines for once. But, as one can tell, I do not. I am about to become the most single person in the world. Kali called him to give him a heads up but I haven’t become brave enough to call him yet. So if there is anyone out there who doesn’t have a valentine for tomorrow and wouldn’t mind being mine. I’m all yours. Well, that’s not entirely true; you see

Now knowing me, one would ask “which guy this time” but as for now this is staying a secret.  Another I don’t know is why I date. Could someone please explain to me why? I don’t even know what the point is. But alas, my timing sucks. So in approximately one hour I will again me single. Damn. Today I went to a video conference interview with Ben Carson. He’s a seventh-day Adventist neurosurgeon; the first to separate conjoined twins at the skull. He was very insightful.   So, yes, this is my letter to my nonexistent valentine.  Now, as I feel like a martyr marching to the stake with my wrists tied behind me, I go to call me soon-to-be-ex boyfriend. You are all invited to my funeral tomorrow.

my life..is weird...

• kai left for europe today..YES
• i think im addicted to pat
• gus NEEDS to come
• allen is sexy...I LOVE YOU
• kali and i are not talking as much..both preoccupied..I LOVE YOU MUFFIN!!!!
• im cleaning my room...*GASP*
• no radio for over a week...I'm in love with a stripper has been stuck in my head..GAH
• i redid my myspace..cept for the background wont change..dangit
• AMPON KITA PE SAPI

I have discovered my favorite addiction. Patrick Allen Brown. *licks lips* Somehow, though, he doesnt want to date anyone, no exceptions, even for me, that I am very happy with him.  Kai and i are friends again. He came and spoke with me for like twenty minutes last night. He left for Europe today, and I'm slighty glad to have him out of my life for 3 weeks. I havent taken my sex bracelets off for 3 weeks. They mean something to me and i dont even know why. My star shaped diamond necklace has replaced my flower one my Kirra-Kirra. Lauren and I are becoming friends again. Somehow I've new friends with old acquaintences in the last week. People somehow realize that they are drawn to me and it's a very delightful surprise for me. So, I hope all of you, my mindsay friends, have a very wonderful President's Day.

I  EMINEM!! and limewire..oops. hehe kai did it. so yeah...this is for jeannie..my gorgeous slim redheaded cuz:

"When light in yonder window breaks: it is Osama!!" and now shes asking "white now?" and i say "yes..white here...white now"

eekk i misses you..yall should go check out my myspace profile..tis sexy!!

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=41165112

yup..all pink and black..so yeah gus..call later..you said you would..chris/dollboy hehe hes a funny one..but ohwell..if any of yall have myspace add me.. wishpixie but yeah..ill ttyl..i  yall...            -Amanda

I LOVE RELIENT K!!!

  so how have yall been this week...no one even comments on here anymore..why do i do this? my face is dry so i have on my trusty BURT"S BEES carrot day creme.. I LOVE BURT"S BEES

THey are great...i get to see Kevin, Cody, Derrick, Dakota, and Craig tomorrow...eekk.. i love PMC...whoa..cody is a sexy ..sexy..sexy...BEAST!! ok yeah my life tizaight ( i sooo told adam i was gonna steal his word..tizaight tho right? lol i LUV YOU) yeah i have a new guy in my life...his name is ADAM HOUIN

hes a doll.im listening to all my fav relient k songs..so many people have told me to listen to this song i have decided it may be helpful for a few of you to understnad me better:

"Mood Rings"

we all know the girls that i am talking about
well they are time bombs and they are ticking
and the only question's when they'll blow up
and they'll blow up; we know that without a doubt
cause they're those girls, yeah you know those girls that let their emotions get the best of them

and i've contrived some sort of a plan to help my fellow man
let's get emotional girls to all wear mood rings
so we'll be tipped off to when they're ticked off
cause we'll know just what they're thinking
cause what they're thinking...

she's so pretty but she but doesn't always act that way
her mood's out swinging on the swing set almost every day
she said to me that she's so happy it's depressing
and all i said was "someone get that girl a mood ring"

if it's drama you want then look no further
they're like the real world meets boy meets world meets days of our lives
and it just kills me how they get away with murder
they'll anger you then bat their eyes; those pretty eyes that watch you sympathize

and i've contrived some sort of a plan to help my fellow man
let's get emotional girls to all wear mood rings
so we'll be tipped off to when they're ticked off
cause we'll know just what they're thinking
cause what they're thinking...

she's so pretty but she but doesn't always act that way
her mood's out swinging on the swing set almost every day
she said to me that she's so stressed out that it's soothing
and all i said was "someone get that girl a mood ring"

cause when it's black (it) means watch your back because you're probably
the last person in the world right now she wants to see
and when it's blue it means that you should call her up immediately
and ask her out because she'll most likely agree
and when it's green it simply means that she is really stressed
and when it's clear it means she's completely emotionless (and that's all right i must confess)

we all know the girls that i am talking about
she liked you wednesday but now it's friday and she has to wash her hair
and it just figures that we'll never figure them out
first she's jekyll and then she's hyde....at least she makes a lovely pair

mood ring oh mood ring
oh tell me will you bring
the key to unlock this mystery
of girls and their emotions
play it back in slow motion
so i may understand the complex infrastructure known as the female mind

[speaking:]
heh...that's terrible

so yeah my loves..ill be soo shocked if anyone actually reads down to the bottom of this..but if you do please write..me a note..that says.."i like you socks" hehe twould be funny to see who actually cares enough to read my whole post..so yeah lifes cool and all that..you know it...

 MANDA